165.2 9am

I've been quite good for months now and my weight shows it. I had my extended tummy tuck with <1000cc flank liposuction and 415 cc silicone transaxillary breast implants on December 17th in Miami, Fl. DH and I drove down on the 13th and headed home on the 26th and got home on the night of December 27th. I saw as low as 165.2 a couple of days before surgery, but swelling had me up a few pounds since then. Today's weigh in was a repeat of the lowest weight I have seen in 17 years. If I lose four more pounds, I will hit 100 pounds lost, which would be quite exciting. If I manage to get down ten more pounds I would be in a healthy weight range for the first time since I was twenty years old. That is really hard to wrap my mind around. The skin on my thighs, arms, neck and butt is showing the weight loss, but I think I can lose up to fifteen more pounds without it being too much of a problem. My skin has recovered remarkably well (I believe that despite the fact that I had the mommy makeover). I just never would have been able to recapture a slim waistline without squidgy rolls of skin. My breasts weren't too bad, but definitely had a laxity I wasn't happy with. DH was so supportive throughout this process and it really makes me appreciate him even more. He has never said anything bad about my body throughout any of the weight gain or loss and has said I didn't need the surgery but if it was something that would make me happier about my body he thought I should do it. Surgery was $7000, hotels were around $1200, gas $275, pre-op labs, mammogram, ecg and Dr visit we're around $500 including travel expenses, and prescription s came to about $140. The largest expense is the time I will continue to have to take off work and that I have already missed. I can already tell though at twelve days postop that I think it was 100% worth it. My surgeon did an amazing job and when the scarring has lightened it will be beautiful. I scar really well because of my super pale skin. I'm so glad that we could make this happen for me and so happy my husband never balked at the expense.

173.8 (8am)

This is the lowest weight I've been in 17 years. I've been trying as hard as I can for a couple months now. This fat is very stubborn. I have my mmo scheduled for December. 17th. I only have 4weeks and 5days left. I am hoping to get down to 165, but don't know if it is possible based on how slow the last three pounds came off. I try to remember though that all I have control of are my actions.

180.6 7:30 am

I'm so close to the 170s again Everything is looking so much better than when I was in the middle of 190s. That 15 lbs makes a big difference.

181.4 8am

I've been working on it pretty solidly for a couple weeks now. I'm happy to be so close to the 170s again. I've scheduled a mommy makeover for December 17th (including extended tummy tuck, 1000 cc lipo of flanks a gummy bear breast implants). That is 10 weeks 3 days from now. I am desperately trying to lose another 20 pounds between now and then. In a dream world I would stay at 160 lbs. I'm working hard at it, but work is crazy right now, so I may have to be happy with 15 lbs. I'll be curious to see how successful I am. I've been at this weight for about five years now, despite very strong efforts to get lower.

186.0 10:45am

Working on it. Trying to be hungry each day and not very good at it right now.

183.2 (6am)

I've really struggled this month. I've eaten more produce than I have ever eaten in my life I think. Maybe too many carbs? Not sure. I was putting it down to hormones (I am a month late on my cycle), but at this point, think maybe the excess carbs have caused a few occations of insulin induced non-keto choices (large dairy queen blizzard, a couple of apple fritters, halo top ice cream, a pint of ben & jerry's ice cream). So, although I am pleased to be at 183.2 this morning (as it is quite a bit lower than I was almost all of last year), I am still struggling. I KNOW this is going to be a life long struggle for me, I just wish it would get a little easier some days.

182.8 6pm

I've been going to bed at 7 or 8 am the last week or so... thus the late weigh in. I've been struggling with my appetite as well for the last 5 or 6 days. I've eaten a few things I shouldn't and eaten at or above calorie need on other days, despite being low carb. I am 2-3 weeks late on my period as well... so I think it is just hormones being wonky.

180.8 7am

I've been successfully taking off weight for about five to six weeks now. I think this is the lowest weight I've been in a couple years. I've been working hard at it as well as walking a lot. My arms and stomach really show the improvement. I go home in four and a half weeks. I hope to be able to get under 170 at that time, but all I can control are my actions of course. Still, I am very hopeful. It is PMS week and I have really been struggling with hunger and not walking as much as I wanted to.

186.4 6am

I've been on track about 2 weeks now. I've been walking about 3 miles most days for the last week (I walked 6 miles today). My weight is gradually coming down. It feels good to be in the groove again!

188.2 7am

It feels sooooo good to be back below 190. This is the lowest I've been in over a year. I am focusing now on getting back to 183.2 (5 more pounds), where I will be back in the overweight category and no longer "obese".

193.0 5:45am

Been low carb, low calorie for 4 days now, so 193 is my "true" weight. I feel like I might be ready to make a long run at strict dieting for a while. I have 10 weeks before I head back to Oklahoma (out of state working right now). I could potentially lose up to 25 pounds in that time. That would be AMAZING.

194.4 3pm

Each day gets a little easier when you are on plan.

195.6 1pm

I'm have been sick with a cold for the last week. Still trying to fight it off. This is a low carb 1000 calorie prior day weight. I think I am like exactly the same weight as Jan 1st 2017, so that is both depressing and a good thing. I feel like I worked on my weight a LOT in 2017 and only managed to stay exactly the same weight. I was on plan at least 80% of the time and would periodically go off the rails and gain a lot of weight (up to 206 pounds at one point) and then "cut" via low calorie low carb to get back down the the mid 190's. I saw a low of ~191-192 last month. I don't know if this is ever going to get easier. I guess it isn't.

Thoughts for 2018... I would like to drop artificial sweeteners 100%. I think this is where a lot of my cravings stem from. I also would like to consistently walk and build up to being able to even run and doing so weight lifting. I would also like to quit with the on plan, off plan, on plan, off plan bullshit. It's exhausting. I would like to stick more with a 4 hour eating window. I have pretty much eliminated breakfast from my life, but I would like to narrow that eating window down even more and try to incorporate some 24-48 hour fasts in there. I've recently been reading and watching videos on fasting and autophagy and am interested in trying to add regular fasting to my life.

All in all, I feel kinda complacent about my weight. Losing down to sub 180 again would make a big difference in how my knees and joints feel. I worry about how much wear and tear I am putting on my body, by carrying around this extra 50 pounds.