191.0 (8:30am)

I'm not sure, I think I have about 1.5 - 2.0 lbs of knee/ankle swelling and water retention. (Possibly PMS bloat as well?) I think my real weight right now is around 189.2 lbs. Hopefully I am right.

191.2 (9:30am)

Today was crazy low for whatever reason. I will take it, but think I will be 192.X tomorrow. It's just really nice to be close to the 180's again though. I've still been weighing and logging my food in fitday religiously. I am going to my mom and dad's on Tuesday morning, so I have some anxiety about controlling my food while I am there, but will somehow manage. It's too important to get my weight down to blow it.

193.8 (9:30am)

Well, the last 4 days have been slow going on the weight loss on the scale, but I am seeing changes in my body. Each evening has been torture. Just REALLY REALLY hard. I hope today is easier. It's always fairly easy in the morning and then by late afternoon it has gotten hard to stay on play and then by evening I want to eat anything and everything I see.

194.6 (10am)

I'm getting there. I think today is day 4 or 5 back on track and logging everything. I went to the gym yesterday and today. I am eager to get back under 30 BMI. I am at 30.91 BMI today (naked) (169cm). At 168cm I need to be below 186.5 lbs. At 169cm I need to be below 188.7 lbs. I am much closer to being back under 30BMI than I thought I was. I will continue to work hard at it though.

197.0 (9am)

Optimal nutrition recommendations: The recommended daily ratio between P, F and C in the ON (calculated per 1kg of IDEAL body weight) is 1: 3.5: 0.8 (10%, 82% and 8%), and for an overweight person 1: 2.5: 0.8 (12.5%, 77% and 10%), until the body weight is stabilized in the normal range. Ideal body weight calculated as height in cm - 100. For me this is ideal body weight of 69kg (152.1 lbs). (BMI calculator says that would make my BMI 24.2, which is at the upper end of "normal weight"). 62 kg (136.6 lbs) would put me smack dab in the middle of "normal weight". Frankly, I would like to get under (and STAY under) 175 lbs. From there I don't really care too much. I would just like to find a weight that I don't have to struggle too hard to maintain. Mentally it is too hard to keep going up and down the scale. 142 lbs was the weight I was so happy at when I was age 19. (64.4). HAMWI METHOD: IDEAL BODY WEIGHT calculates me at idea (large frame) at 147 lbs. Using all of that, I would say I could use 65 kg as my ideal body weight (143.3 lbs). The recommended daily ratio between P, F and C in the ON (calculated per 1kg of IDEAL body weight) is 1: 3.5: 0.8 (10%, 82% and 8%), and for an overweight person 1: 2.5: 0.8 (12.5%, 77% and 10%), until the body weight is stabilized in the normal range. So for me, weightloss would be recommended at 65 grams protein 162.5 grams fat 52 grams carbs Total calories recommended : 1930 That doesn't seem like that is low enough. What is funny to me though, is that the 65 grams protein + 52 grams carbs seems to be spot on to what has been working for me. From what I understand, the fat calories that aren't eaten, come from body adipose tissue, but the influx/outflux affect satiety/hunger signals. But because the difference is always going to be made up by the body, regardless of whether I eat the fat or just use my bodies stored fat, I should be hitting this ketogenic ratio.

196.6 (8am)

Yesterday was the first day that I had a 100% logged on track day in I can't remember how long. Today will be tough I am sure. I am just so happy to see sub200 on the scale again. I was starting to get really freaked out. I must have seen over 200 on the scale for like 2 weeks straight and would start each day with the best intentions and then blow it by the time evening had come. It's going to be rough turning back into a fat burning machine instead of a carb burning machine. When insulin in chronically high, it's almost as if you are addicted. I FINALLY realize though, that high insulin levels all day just mean you are ALWAYS running around in a energy deprived state. The ONLY time you are not energy deprived is during the 20-30 minutes immediately following eating a bunch of carbs. Unfortunately, the body has to quickly get that blood sugar out of the system (to prevent high blood sugar) and only 20-30 minutes later, you don't have enough energy to run on. It is quite the vicious cycle.

200.2 (11am) Carb bloated weight.

Ate a ton of ice cream yesterday and then chinese food last night. Yesterday was the first day of my period. I have had a rough last 10 days. I couldn't get myself under control for anything. My guess is that progesterone has been really high. After the tubal ligation surgery I also didn't feel like worrying about it too much either. I am going to get it under control now though. This weight is way to high. I REALLY need to lose like at least 12 real pounds, 2 food weight pounds and 4 water weight pounds. That's going to take some work. I still feel like hanging around in bed today though. I still don't feel great (I haven't been taking anything for the pain).

199.0 (10am)

So, 199.0 is obviously higher than I would like, but it is better than I hoped for this morning, so I guess it is ok. I am at least back under 200.0. I get my surgery tomorrow morning and then have about 6 weeks before I would absolutely like (for job and health reasons) to be back under 183. That should be very doable, considering I am at a carb bloated weight this morning and likely have at least 5 pounds of water weight/ excess food weight on me.

200.6 (9:15am)

200.6 (noon)

I have been over 200 for the last 4 or 5 mornings. I am unable to get my crap together. I must. I am somewhat scared, but feel like today might be the day. I have my tubal ligation surgery scheduled for next Friday.