181.8 (10:30am) home

I ate a ton of food yesterday which included about 12-15 nutter butter cookies last night, liver and onions, 700 calories of sunflower seeds, 2 truckstop polish sausages, 2 packages of peanuts, some sugar free chocolate and 2 oz of cheese. I was FULL last night, which was nice. I am sad I ate the nutter butters though. I shouldn't have. I am also sad I ate as much as I did. I think I might have eaten as much as gaining a 1/2 to 3/4 pound (calorie wise). My husband is smoking ribs today, so I am worried about how much I am going to eat today too. I REALLY don't want to gain weight this weekend.

179.4 (new scale, 9:30am)

50 hours left until I can head home. I am ready to be off from work for a few days. I am not looking forward to the 8 hour drive to get home though. Yesterday was good. I was hungry ALL day though. I'm hoping today isn't quite as hungry of a day. I really really really want to get under 175. I can remember so many different occasions when I weighed 175 and honestly, it's a pretty good weight for me. A comfortable weight for my body.

179.4(8:30 new scale naked)

woohoooooo! :)

I am pretty excited to be under 180. I didn't think it would happen today, but then it did. I can't believe how loose my jeans have gotten. I really have lost some weight from my stomach and arms and butt. I really don't ever imagine a few pounds would make any difference, but I can really tell. I've lost 2 pounds in the last week that I've been gone, which isn't great, but is great FOR ME. I lose so slowly anymore. I think it's because my daily burn rate has decreased so much. It used to be like 2600 when I was a lot heavier and it is under 1900 now. I could up my daily activity to increase it, but my history has shown that it is counter-productive for ME to do that. (It increases my appetite too much and I binge eat).

I leave in 76 hours. I am ready to head home. It's been fine down here in Texas, and I am excited to be losing weight, but I miss being home.

180.2 (8:45 new scale naked)

I was so happy to see 180.2 lbs on the scale this morning. So close to the 170's. It's just almost seems impossible to lose weight anymore, so I really am exciting to have made some headway. It doesn't seem like these last 10 pounds would make much difference, but it really has.

181.0 (8:30am) travel scale naked

I feel so close to getting under 180! It's kinda surreal. I feel so much thinner than I do at 190. You wouldn't think that it would make much of a difference. I think I am not even perceived as being really fat anymore. Maybe a little chubby and definitely not THIN, but I think I probably am just perceived as being a normal 40 year old size. It's nice. I think if I could just get down to 170, I might truly be thought of as being normal size. I am of course in the overweight BMI range. I would have to get down clear to 154 or something to be in the normal weight range. I think it's possible, but I don't know how realistic it will be for me. If it happens, it would be nice, but honestly, I am more concerned about how my skin looks at whatever weight I end up at. I really want my thighs to allow me to wear shorts without feeling self-conscious. I wore shorts at 261. My skin was nice and smooth. As I've lost weight, I am developing almost what looks like cellulite. It's not though, because when I lift on my upper butt area (like a body lift would do), the area is smooth like it should be. I do not have the connecting tissue that women have that causes the dimpling (they are like little tether lines or something). Anyway, it's just an excess skin issue of it not pulling tight. I hate it. It really makes me feel for thin women who have cellulite. It makes you hate your legs to not have them be nice and smooth. I of course also have the excess stomach skin as well. It bulges out at the sides in a muffin top fashion even without clothes on. My belly button looks like a frown too. And I have some rollover skin at the bottom of my stomach. Not a lot, but I am not fond of it, to be sure. I could definitely stand to have a body lift when my weight loss is done, but I won't. My arms are ok. They are not great and they are not bad. There is excess skin, but certainly not enough to prevent me from wearing tank tops. Which is important, as hot as it gets down here in the summers. I fantasize about having the skin from when I was at 180 coming up the scale. It was so much firmer. My skin DOES feel amazingly healthy. Supple and well conditioned. It's not dry like it used to be before my change to LCHF. My nails have become amazingly strong in the last month or two as well. I am not sure what prompted that change, but it makes me super happy. I have been plagued my whole life with thin nails that are prone to peeling in layers or bending back and cracking. I know that it has been caused by nutritional deficiencies, but despite supplementation, was never able to get them to a healthy state. I have five more days down here in Texas, then I will be going home for 4 days and then coming back down here to work for 8 more days. It is really easy to manage my diet while I am down here. I am hopeful to be able to lose a total of 3 more pounds during the 13 total days spent down here. I am sure I will have some rebound up the scale when I go home. My husband is planning to smoke some ribs and pork shoulder. I will eat to fullness on that. I will NOT eat a bunch of high carb junk.

183.8 (clothed at work 8:30am)

181.4 (8am)

I am getting close to getting under 180. It feels super exciting. I am leaving today on business. I'll come back in about a week and a half for 3 days and then leave again for another week and a half. I will come home on May 6th. I'll be working in Texas. That all should be about 3 weeks. I hope to average a pound a week loss while I am gone. As usual, meals will be provided and quite carby.

183.2 (8:30 am) 181.6 (10:15am)

Finally, a new low. (Not a new low in the context of the last 2 years of weight loss, but I think this is the lowest weight I have seen in about a year). I still have about 5 pounds to go to get under my two year low (achieved 16 months ago). My body REALLY wants to stay in the 180's I think. I have never lost such tough weight as this.

184.0 (9:30)

I am having a devil of a time getting under 180. I'm working on it. Easter was a higher calorie day (but still low carb). I feel like my body is changing though. Lots of people noticed I look thinner at Easter, so it must be working. I just kind of expected to be under 180 by now.