Imitation Crab Meat for dinner

Yup. Straight. Yum! High in carbs though, so I just got a 1 1/17 servings. It's delicious, but they add a lot of sugar to it, so you have to be careful. I love the stuff and normally buy it in the 2.5 lb vacuum packed bags. So far so good. DH will be home from work in a little over an hour and that's always a hard part of my day if I am trying to stay on track. Hopefully I can manage myself tonight and have a successful day under my belt. I haven't had one of those in 2 months!

6:00 pm... I'm in the danger zone.

So I took another Dipro at 6:00... in a little while I will cook another stir fry or something to have tonight and tomorrow. I feel kinda woozy and want to call it a day and go watch tv. I think I will be less apt to fall off tonight if I stay in my office and continue working. It's been a weird day and I am not sure if it's the Dipro or just that it's been a random weird day.

Going well so far!

So I took my Dipro at 3ish and I am now eating the other 1/4 of the stirfry I made yesterday.

209 Calories
6.2 g Fat
7.5 g Carbs
30.8 g Protein

I just spent the last couple of hours tracking down a package for a customer and was able to locate it and relay the good news to the customer. :) So I did not get as much listed as I wanted to online for sale. That's ok! Sometimes things come up. I just feel sooooo relieved. I hate dealing with customer problems. They usually work out ok, but I seem to stress out a lot more about them than I probably should. I just want everything to work out 100% of the time and I need to realize that that just isnt realistic.

I want to take another Dipro at 6:00 and make another stirfry to have tonight and eat for 2 of my meals tomorrow. I weigh everything on my digital scale (down to the gram!) and then imput everything in fitday. By doing that, I get several meals out of one cooking weighing session... and although each actual meal isn't spot on calorically/carb wise, the combined total of several meals should be very accurate.

Anyway, I need to get back to work. I feel real energized to get a lot done in the next 4 hours.

So far so good...

I took a Dipro at 10:45 and at noon at 1/4 of the stirfry that I made yesterday.

Calories: 209
Fat grams: 6.2
Carb grams: 7.5
Protein grams: 30.8

I plan to take my 2nd Dipro at 3:00 and eat the remaining 1/4 stirfry at 4:00 and plan my second meal at that time. I will check in here then.

I am full and feel hopeful. I will work hard between now and then and finish cleaning my kitchen.

241.4

So... I have steadily gained back all the weight I lost. Every pound. Eating what I wanted to eat in the portions I wanted to eat them in. That's rough. It's difficult to discover that if you eat what you want and in the quantities you body desires, you are destined to be obese. Part of me thinks I should just accept being fat. The other part knows that it is too hard on my body/spirit to live this way.

I tried to get back on track yesterday and fell apart around 6pm and then had chocolate bars (3!), coke, and nachoes. Yeah. Not good. I was sooo disappointed in myself. I know if I could just string enough days together of being on track it would get easier. Today... I am shooting for 800-1000 calories, at least 50 grams of protein and no more than 36 grams of carbs. I've done it before. I can do it again. I know the only true answer for me long term is zero carb or Dr. Bernsteins 6/12/12 (carbs per meal) plan. More carbs just equals more cravings and more eating for me.

I still have 5 1/2 days of my Dipro prescription left, so I am going to take if through Sunday and hopefully will feel like I am on track by then. Going through sugar detox sucks and the cravings for me are always really intense. I can do this! I have to do this.

234.6

August 1st I went on Zero Carb. I stayed on it from August 1st to September 20th and went from 243 to about 219. I then fell off plan and it is now a month and a half later and I am back up to 234.6. I learned a lot by being zero carb and hope to successfully go back on plan starting today. I have been out of control since September 21st and have been gaining weight since then.

I started today with 200 calories of liverwurst and then later 200 calories of cream cheese. I am drinking water and hot tea and am committing to getting back off aspertame. I causes way to many cravings.