247.2

Ate very little yesterday, but wanted a DQ Blizzard badly. Did not give in. I have been drinking one diet soda in the evenings for the last 3 days. I don't know if it is making it harder or not.

247.2

This is the start of day 12. I am still having quite a bit of cravings in the evening... but have managed to stay strong. Each day feels a little more like this is something I can do.

248.2

247.8

I am starting to really fell better in my skin already. Weird what 10 lbs can do. :)

249.4

I had the worst ZC cravings day yesterday so far. I almost caved in... but made it. whew! so glad I made it. That was crazy hard. Not sure what triggered it. TOM?

250.4

It's still working! :)

Each day is getting a little easier and "normal" to ZC.

251.6

Today is the start of day 6 I think. It's getting easier. We have been working like crazy people and it has helped keep me distracted. I am starting to feel better.

252.6

Four days down. This is the start of day 5. :) Got to be on my toes... it's easy to make mistakes at this point in the game. Busy day ahead.

254.0 This mornign

Day 3 of ZC is almost over. Ate Liverwurst, pepperoni and am now going to have some chuck. Feeling better already. :)

255.6

I managed to stay on track yesterday. Today is the start of Day 2 ZC. :)

256.2

Start of ZC. Went and purchased pork steaks and chuck roast and eggs last night. I am going to try this without dairy and see if it helps. I have Gary Taubes new book "Why we get Fat and what to do about it", from the library yesterday and am going over Good Calories, Bad Calories again. I want to physically feel better.

I am broiling some pork steaks right now. I hope I have the strength to make this work.

259.2

See above. UGH

257.8

We are going through a big business life change right now, so life is pretty stressful.

I had eggs for breakfast (4). I feel physically horrible all the time right now.

256.4

Big news today for our business. Didn't sleep well. Will know in about an hour. Waiting on pins and needles.

255.2

Last 2 days have been a fail, but my weight is somewhat down. I am trying.

258.0 Zero Carb Day 1

This is the highest weight i have ever seen. I have been over 250 for about 2 months now. I obviously can't eat regular food anymore. My insulin response has gotten steadily worse. I feel horrible physically all the time. I am making a commitment today, May 1st, 2011. Right now. I CAN'T ever go back to what I have been doing. I am going to stick to straight meat, heavy cream and water. Maybe if I am really strict it will get easier faster this time. I am committing to daily logging my thoughts here as well as daily weigh-ins. Weigh-in this morning was at 7:45.

Joints consistently hurt and knees are cracking.
Steadily have been gaining weight since my low of 219 last time ZC (40 lbs in 8.5 months!)
Daily self recriminations.
No hope for being able to do physical things in the future unless I CHANGE what I am doing.