250.0

Ok. So I gave up the 800 calories a day idea already. I don't believe it is in my best interests to do it. I really need to do something I can stick with long term. I have lost the weight and regained the weight enough times to know that I need to find a way of eating I can live with for life. Hopefully I would lose weight gradually. I doubt I will ever get down to the weight I would like to be (136) and not be actively restricting calories (being hungry a good part of the day) to maintain it - low carb or not. I am tempted to go lower calorie, to lose weight faster, but here is what I would like to promise myself:

I will stay low carb / primal with high fat dairy.
I will try to eliminate fake sugars (artificial sweeteners). Letting go of sugar is hard though and I will not yell at myself for using it for a crutch here in the beginning.

I will try to do some exercise as I lose weight and it feels better.
I will try to sit in the sun for brief (<10 minutes) each day.

I DID calorie track today and ended up with a 200 calorie deficit. Better than nothing for sure. I also feel like I am getting off the sugar swings / insulin swings right now, so I will cut myself some slack. I WILL eat low carb primal though and try to lower my calorie consumption as time goes on. I will not be under 200 by the 4th of July... but it would be nice to be at least down to 235 (1 pound a week) or even down to 220 (2 pounds a week). Both are quite doable without much deprivation.