187.0 (11am)

I have remained low carb, but have been eating to appetite if not more. I expected to see 187.0 if not more on the scale this morning. I guess I am good with it. My PMS symptoms have been quite strong for the last 4-5 days and I think I have been experiencing a lot of progesterone mediated hunger. My breasts are still quite tender and my period still isn't here, so I expect to fight hunger today as well, when I attempt to restrict caloric intake. I will do the best I can.

Today is Saturday. I am leaving next Wednesday to drive ~1200 miles down to central Florida. I will only be down there for 1 day and then will turn around and drive back. I am pretty excited about the trip, as I have never been through any of those states really. It will be nice to see all that part of the U.S. If things turn out as I hope, I will then come home for a couple weeks and then go back to spend about a month there again.

184.4 (9AM)

So close to being back under 183. I really hope (plan) to lose 20 more pounds and get under 165. I think it would REALLY make a difference in how fat I was perceived to be. Hopefully it would also improve my energy and joint pain. I still occasionally get popping in my knees.

I have been logging my food in fitday again. It seems to be helping (as usual). I need to consistently get to tracking again. I think my lack of tracking over the last year has really contributed to my inability to get back under my low (176 or thereabouts) and make more headway.

187.8 (5am) new scale, out of town

I was pleasantly surprised to see 187.8 this morning. I've been home from my mom and dad's slightly less than three weeks and felt that I had gained more than the 3-4 pounds I am up. Today is the fifth day I am strictly back on low carb. It was kinda a free for all there for a little while after I got home. Never intentional stuff, but consistently eating my husband's treats that he keeps in the house. I just could not stay out of them! Which is very disappointing, as I don't even favor the same treats as he does.

Anyway, I drove up to Kansas last night and I will hopefully be here through Friday, although it is possible I will head home this evening. I slept horribly in this hotel room. My sleep has been all over the place (time-wise) the last 2-3 weeks and it just made it really hard to go to sleep last night. If at all possible this afternoon, I am going to take a nap (meaning if work doesn't interupt).

187.0 (noon) low carb the prior day ~1200 calories

I went to bed last night at 4am and got up and noon again. I am going to try to go to bed at a normalish time tonight! I need to get back on a regular schedule.

I fixed a fuse in my car this afternoon. So it's been a productive day so far. I think I am going to run to the store and get some silicone spray and a turkey baster. (Car windows and automotive suction tool). It's beautiful out and it's a shame to be spending today cooped up inside. Maybe that will help today be easier food wise as well. Day #3 is always a bit tough.

187.4 (noon)

So, I was 100% on plan yesterday and my weight is down 4.8 lbs from the exact same time yesterday. I didn't get up until noon, so I am really curious what my early morning weight is 8-9am. Anyway, yesterday was hard to get through, but I made it. Today will be hard too, I am sure. I really would like to get below 183 (early morning weight) before the end of the month. I don't know how doable it is... I will just have to do the best I can and I guess the weight will fall where it falls.

192.2 lbs (noon) ate a lot of food yesterday, fries and battered chicken strips at 2am

So, I am really struggling. Luckily necessity will keep me on the straight and narrow for the next 6 days. I am leaving to spend a few days out of town next Tuesday. I intend to be 100% on plan for these next 6 days, then to do the best I can with the food that I will be supplied while out of town. I hope to have another business trip as well before the end of the month.

188.4 (noon, home, old scale, ate ~2000 calories last night, including cookies)

Yesterday came really close to being successful at then at 10pm, I lost control and ate and ate. Which makes me sad. I REALLY intended yesterday to be spot on. At least my weight is back in the 180's. I intend to be perfect today and then get a morning weight (as apposed to this noon weight today) tomorrow.

190.0 (oreos and 2 tortillas the prior day ~3000 calories) 11:30am

Just for future information -

July 1, 2013 to July, 31st 2013:

average calories: 751

fat grams: 49.5

carb grams: 31.9-9.4 =22.5 net carbs

protein grams: 48.4

weight lost: 228.2 ----> 219.0

9.2 lbs / 30 days =1073 deficit per day ----> 1824 calories used per day @ roughly 225 lbs.

191.2 (High carb, high food, naked, old scale 10:15am)

I was 185.2 four days ago. I have gained 6 pounds in four days. Granted at least 4 pounds of that is carb and food weight, but still, that is quite disappointing. I am back on track now, and will even weigh and record my food in fitday for 3 weeks. I am committing to 700 calorie, recording everything I eat, weighing every day and ketogenic eating through the first of February.

187.4 (5:30am, new scale, naked)

I am out of town on business this morning, but will be headed back late this morning. We bought a new car yesterday and it has been fun to drive it on this trip. It is much more comfortable than our other car (which gets much better mpg's). Yesterday, I ate 3 packs of peanuts, a roma tomato and a large avocado with life. I was hoping to see a lower weight this morning, but have been eating junk the last few days, so am not surprised.

187.2 (noon, naked, home, old scale)

I ate chocolate chip cookies, chocolate chip cookie dough, tortilla chips and salsa yesterday. I am hoping to be back on track today and have a reasonable weigh in tomorrow. I am cooking 4 oz 85/15 ground beef with 8 oz frozen broccoli right now for lunch. I will probably have the same thing (or with cabbage instead) for dinner.

185.4 (11:30am, naked, new scale, in Oregon)

I am pretty happy to start the year at 185.4 lbs. Last year on January 1st I was at 180.4 lbs. I consider the year an amazing success. June 2013 through December 2013 had a major weight loss. To be able to hold onto that weight for a full year is just incredible to me. It has historically been if not easy, at least possible to lose weight. Maintaining the weight loss is a whole other monkey. I had hoped in early December to be back under 183, but I am still really, really pleased to be at 185. I have spent the majority of 2014 around 193-196, so being at 185.4 is quite a nice end to the year. In 2015 I would like to lose another 10-20 pounds and then maintain it for the rest of my life. I KNOW how I have to eat to maintain my weight. I have not recorded food consumption for much of 2014. I consider that a huge cause of my inability to lose my remaining weight and my repeated gains into the upper 190's. HOWEVER, I have been grateful to learn that it is basically possible to maintain my weight loss by eating low carb foods in reasonable portions and not weighing and measuring each and every bite consumed. I will be flying home tomorrow, whereupon I plan to weigh and measure my food EVERY day (that I am not out of town for work) and recording it in Fitday. Weightloss is really slow anymore. I would be happy to lose 1.75 pounds a week now (which would be a 875 calorie deficit per day AND eating HFLC). Basically eating 1000 calories a day will get me a 1.75-2 lb weight loss per week. In a dream world I would get down to 163 and maintain. 22.4 more pounds. It's weird to me that so many New Years Days of my life were imagining a 60,70,80, 120 pound weight loss. To imagine losing ONLY 22.4 pounds just seems ridiculous. Three months of solid Fitday recording, LCHF, 1000 calorie days would land me at 163. (Which is a solid size 12). I AM happy at the weight I am now. I am constantly struggling to be at this weight though. Honestely, I DO recognize that I will spend the rest of my life struggling to stay sub 200 lbs. That is my hand and I will always have the fight against gaining weight back.