185.0 (9:15am) naked, travel scale in Texas

This is my carbed up weight. Day number 1 of my cycle. This last week was tough hunger-wise and the scale definitely reflects that. I am GOING to log and weigh every day. I can't stand this higher weight. Even though it is not much of my new normal, I can feel it. I just want to be really serious and lose 20 more pounds. It shouldn't be as hard as it's been. I feel like I have tried really hard over the last 20+ months and have lost no weight. Maybe this is just how hard I have to try to maintain. I am ok with that. Trying this hard to maintain, is OK. I just really would like to be thinner than I am right now. I would like to feel more agile.