183.8 (9:45am)

I overate low carb items yesterday.

184.8 (8:30)

Five more days to be solidly under 30 BMI (wearing clothes). I may actually already be there, but want to give myself some wiggle room.

186.2 (8am)

Yesterday - bacon and eggs for breakfast, Mexican restaurant for lunch, boiled egg and 2 ham, cream cheese and pickle rollups for dinner. I can lose 3 pounds over the next six days.

185.0 (9:15)

I am just so tired of regaining what I lose.

184.8 (7:30am)

Ate Chinese food at the chinese buffet yesterday. Then I came home and ate low carb, but copious quantities of it. Eleven ounces cheese, 4 eggs, cabbage, onions, mushrooms, peanuts... probably there was something else that I am not remembering. Anyway, I have GOT to get back on track. I am super upset to be as high as I am this morning. I am hoping with three days back on track I can be back below 180. We will see.

181.0 (4am)

I am down in Texas this morning, but will be driving home around noon. Hopefully I will get home around 7 or 8pm. It was 95 degrees down here yesterday, so I hope I have a good travelling day. I am really struggling to eat on plan since getting back from Maryland. Today will make 1 week since leaving Maryland and I don't think I have had but 2 good days during that time.

183.0 (6am) Carbed up very full weight

Ugh... I can't believe I have been home 4 days and I am up 6.8 lbs. I am back on track this instant. I disgust myself with this crap.

177.0 (old & new scale 6am home)

I was pretty disappointed to see 177.0 this morning. I was spot on perfect yesterday and was pretty darn good coming home the day before yesterday. I really expected to see 175.8 or something this morning. Oh well. It is what it is. I still am sore from some exercises I did yesterday and I drank about a 2 liter of diet mountain dew as well, so maybe I am just retaining a bit of water.

176.2 (7:15am)

So, I made my weight loss goal for my time here in Maryland. I am super stoked to be at an all new low. It's exciting to have a new goal, instead of just trying to relose weight I've already lost (and then regained).

176.4 (10:50am) 176.6 (9am)

I weighed twice this morning because i was so hopeful to see an all new low. And it happened! I leave Maryland tomorrow, and and so pleased to be seeing a new low on the scale. I really, really intend to keep myself in line when I gt home and really work on getting down below 170 (for now). Ultimately, I would really like to at least get down to 161. It can happen, but I'm not sure how easy it would be to maintain. I won't know until I try.

177.0 (9am)

177.4 (6am)

Today of TOM day #1. Glad to get that out of the way. Maybe my weight will come down a couple of pounds in the next couple of days with the water weight loss. I didn't have breast tenderness this last week though, so maybe I didn't retain much water. Not sure.

177.0 (9:45am)

177.4 (8am)

I have 4 more days here in Maryland. I hope I can get down to 176, but it's not looking to hopeful. TOM is coming up, so I should have some water weight gain soon.

178.6 (8:30am)

Man, getting under 175.0 is going to be hard. I've really been working at it, but these are just some really tough pounds to lose I guess.

178.4 (7:15am)

I hoping to lose another 2 pounds before I leave Maryland in eight days. That will put me at an all new low (12 years?). Anyway, I'm getting close to a virgin low weight again, and I am getting to the high progesterone point of my cycle (period due in 7 days), so I am sure I will really be fighting to control my eating (hunger) and getting to this new weight. In fact, I don't really think it can happen, if watching my weight daily for the last 2 years has taught me anything. I just have to much of a water retention, hunger swing at the end of the month.

179.8 (7:10am)

It feels good to be back under 180. I don't feel happy about it, as much as relieved.

181.2 (7:30am)

I walked 1h 18min yesterday so my weight is up 0.6 lbs today (muscle water retention). I have been working on doing some walking, trying to get my pulse down a little. Food consumption has also been going well. I have exactly 2 weeks left until I go home. I am hoping to lose 4-6 lbs in that time. I have put it straight out in my Fitday goal that I am now working on getting down to 161.2 (100 pounds lost). I have 20.0 pounds to go from here. I will re-evaluate when I get there, if I want to go down any further. I feel like my chest might be a hot mess if I go down any further in weight, but then I will look a lot better IN clothes. I'm just going to have to try to balance it I guess.

183.4 (7:45)

My weight is coming down a little. I ate a bag of chips, 2 slices of white bread and 2 cookies that I shouldn't have yesterday (as well as a ton of baby carrots that are ok, but higher carb as a vegetable goes). I really want to watch it, but keep making bad choices. I am not sure why I am struggling so much right now with making better choices. Sometimes it is harder than others for sure. The biggest thing though is to weigh EVERY day and to keep trying.

185.2 (9:15am)

I have 22 full days left and then I go home. I haven't been able to lose any weight since getting here. I intend to REALLY try now though. I can do 22 days of strict restriction. I need to do that. I just haven't had it in me mentally or physically up until now. Part of it was hormonal I'm sure. I AM in the better part of my cycle hormonally, so I hope it makes a good difference. I have been blathering about wanting to get down to 175 or even 163 for the last year and a half. That's kind of silly. Ten or twenty pounds is nothing compared to what I have already done. I need to make it happen. I WILL make it happen.

187.0 (7:10am)

This is my carbed up weight... but still. I am getting my act together.

185.6 (10am)

I think I have actually gained weight since coming here. Unacceptable!

184.8 (10am)

I have 27 more days here in Baltimore. I am hoping to lose 8 lbs during that time. That would place me at 177 lbs. It's funny, how two years ago, I would have thought it was impossible to ever get back down to this weight, and a fantastical dream to get back into the 170's. I STILL would like to manage to get into the 160's. I've been working on it for a long time, and I continue to eat junk once i get under 180. It's like I can't help myself. I do want to eliminate this thick stomach area I have though.

On a happy note, my skin is amazing. I have looseness, but my skin is soft and supple. I continue to be surprised at how good it feels. I know it takes YEARS for skin to replace itself completely, so it makes sense that it will continue to improve as time goes on. I have been drinking a hot gelatin drink (when at home) to hopefully improve my skin, hair and nails. I think it's still improving.

186.8 (8:30am) carbed up weight

So I ate 2 cookies, a hamburger bun, a roll, two pieces of wheat wonder bread, a small piece of garlic bread and spaghetti (and two cups of milk) yesterday. This is my carbed up weight. I'm hoping to get my period today. I am tired of these hormones.

185.0

I just have NOT been able to get control of myself. This is my high progesterone week (PMS) and my hunger has just been insatiable. I am hoping I can get control of it starting right now. I expect my weight will be up tomorrow morning. I ate a ton of carbs (provide by my employers) at lunch and dinner today. My weight will probably be over 187 tomorrow... maybe even 188. I'm disappointed in myself, but this also happens every month, so I don't know why I would continue to be surprised by it. It's just really hard for me to fight that hormonal hunger.

184.8 (9:30 am) in Baltimore

I am up over 5 1/2 pounds from where I was in Austin. That is pretty disappointing. I had way to much ice cream in that time after Austin. I am trying to be on plan here, but it is hard. Today is my 6th day here. I am going to be on point today and I am going to start logging EVERYTHING in fitday. I have said that so many times over the last year and a half. It's been almost 2 years since I changed my life. I need to continue making the effort.

182.8 (9am)

I had a large DQ Reeses Blizzard last night around 7pm. Other than that, I have been on track (but not restricting calories) for the last 4 days. I am trying to eat on plan (calories not overly restricted though) and then have treats when I go out if I REALLY want them. For the last year and a half, I have struggled with eating carby junk thats already in the house (examples: Fig Newtons, sour cream and onion chips, tuna sandwich, m&m's, etc, treats that aren't my 1st choice, they are junk my husband has in the house). What I want to work on, is NOT eating off plan stuff in the house. IF I want a treat enough to go out and specifically make a special trip to get it, then it would be "ok" to occasionally indulge. What I have been doing though, is going off plan, with food that isn't even special to me. That's ridiculous.

182.4 (8am)

I ate around 2000 calories yesterday. All were low carb.

183.8 (6am)

I was on track yesterday, so I think I still have a few pounds of glycogen related water weight on me.

179.2 (8:30 naked, new scale)

Finally I am back under 180. I am leaving Texas tomorrow though and plan on getting a DQ Reeses Blizzard (large with extra candy) on my drive home tomorrow. So, it will put me back up over 182 I am sure. I aim to really be on plan after that indulgence though (low carb, tracked, etc). I feel thinner than I have in a long time and it is nice. I still am trying to get under 175. It will happen eventually. I am ok with it being a longer process though.