187.0 (8:30am)

yesterday ate an apple fritter AND a large Braums Reeses mix with extra reeses. So this is the carb bloated weight. 2pm - 3 hardboiled eggs (170 grams) (262 calories). 4pm - hot cocoa made with 26 grams whey protein, 20 grams heavy cream, sucralose powder, low carb almond milk (200 calories)

180.8 (11:15am)

184.0 yesterday at 6am, 180.8 today at 11:15am. It makes a huge difference in my weight what time of day I weigh in at. I have always noticed this. It's weird though. Maybe my level of dehydration overnight?

183.0 (8:15 am)

So, 183.0 is my low carb low food weight. (What I consider the "start point" of my weight loss). I tracked and logged on fitday yesterday. I ended up at 836 calories (low carb). I'm happy with that. I am happy with how today has gone so far as well. (Coffee with 126 grams half and half, a 4 oz (raw weight) hamburger patty and 5.9 oz raw turnip. I think I will have chicken breast and cabbage tonight. I would REALLY like to get in the real weight loss groove again. I feel cautiously optimistic. I saw some pictures of myself yesterday from when I was at my high (261). It was so shocking. I guess I often forget how much better it is right now. I have been struggling up and down between 176 and 189 basically for the last 2 years now. I am proud to have maintained this weight loss. I've been hard on myself for not losing more (any) during the last 2 years. What I have accomplished IS fantastic though. I forget that. And seeing how much better I look, and remembering how much better I feel, reminds me that it would be worth it to get the last 20-40 pounds that I would like to lose off.

183.8 (noon)

Today I commit to weighing my food... putting it in Fitday, weighing on my scale daily (unless not possible due to work circumstances), and going low carb low calorie. I am committing to doing this for a time duration, NOT until I reach a specific weight. I as always can eat as much low carb as I want (with a dream goal of 700 calories, a happy goal of 1000 calories, and success sub 2000 calories). I am committing to this through May 1st, 2016. 119 Days. During that time period it is POSSIBLE to lose 40.8 pounds. I would be quite happy to get down to 161 (100 pounds lost). But mainly, I want to focus on the actions. My weight will end where it wants to. I've struggled the last 2 years to stay at this weight. I HAVE been successful, but have continued to have reaccuring periods of a week to two weeks during which I basically eat whatever I want to almost binging. I repeatedly have lost 10 pounds and promptly regained it. I would really like to focus on trying to get my body to a place where I am happy with it. I don't know if I will ever be "happy" with my body, because of the skin issues caused by being so overweight, BUT I would like to feel in control and proud of my BEHAVIOR.

184.4 8:15am

185.6 (9:45)