191.5 (naked 8am)

192.0 for the last 2 days post 8 oz water. I am 14 days into a 2400 high carb meal dependent study. I am happy this morning that I am not higher than I am. I will leave on the 22nd and am hopeful that my Jan 1, 2017 weigh-in (low carb, low fed) will be 184. I will never again do a study that requires 100% meal completion. It's not worth it. I would like to know what my blood sugar has been running with all the carbs. I was sick with coughing and runny nose for about a week and yesterday was the first day that I felt quite good. I will leave in another 5 days.

193.6 4am (Day after Thanksgiving)

193.6 4am Full Weight. Carbed up weight.

184.8 (9:15am)

Almost back down to solid sub 30 bmi. I've been working solidly at it for about a month and a half. Weight is frustratingly hard to lose anymore. I keep persevering though. I am hoping/planning to continue on a lose about 8 more pounds between now and the end of the year (1 pound per week). I would be so happy to get down to 160 and keep it there. Twenty-five pounds shouldn't be that hard after losing more than seventy-five pounds, but it has been harder than I ever imagined. It really takes consistently doing things on point macro-wise and allowing myself to often be hungry. I haven't been under 183 in over six months though, and I just don't find that acceptable anymore.

194.4 (noon)

I have been in the 190-195ish range since late May. I haven't been weighing every day. I've been eating to many carbs. My energy is VERY low. I don't have ambition for doing things. I don't feel great. I need to get these 10 pounds I have gained OFF. I am starting NOW. Weighing/measuring/counting calories and carbs.

I've been watching a lot of youtube videos about cortisol and thyroid hormone.

182.8 7a.m. Low carb, low food weight

So, weight wise I am back to my pretty consistent for the last 2 years weight. (I think of that as being 183 low carb weight). I am going to make and effort over the next four months (or however long it takes, to get down to at least sub-161). I know I've said that before... but I really feel like it's time. I am so tired of going up and down over the same 10-15 pounds. I AM proud of myself for maintaining where I have.. but it is no longer enough. It is time to get where I want to be.

186.8 (7:45am)

This is my high carb moderate food prior day weight. My low carb weight is probably 182-183? Anyway, I am holding steady. I am currently out of town working and have no real control over my meal choices. I have been eating a lot of carbs and feeling a lot of hunger as a result. I have felt the need to look at recipes on the internet (a sure sign my carb consumption is too high). I'm ok with my current weight. I've been spending a lot of time lately though wondering if I could get back in athletic shape. I would like to. How much I would like to is in question though. I am 41 now though, and am kind a feeling like I need to start taking that seriously.

187.0 (8:30am)

yesterday ate an apple fritter AND a large Braums Reeses mix with extra reeses. So this is the carb bloated weight. 2pm - 3 hardboiled eggs (170 grams) (262 calories). 4pm - hot cocoa made with 26 grams whey protein, 20 grams heavy cream, sucralose powder, low carb almond milk (200 calories)

180.8 (11:15am)

184.0 yesterday at 6am, 180.8 today at 11:15am. It makes a huge difference in my weight what time of day I weigh in at. I have always noticed this. It's weird though. Maybe my level of dehydration overnight?

183.0 (8:15 am)

So, 183.0 is my low carb low food weight. (What I consider the "start point" of my weight loss). I tracked and logged on fitday yesterday. I ended up at 836 calories (low carb). I'm happy with that. I am happy with how today has gone so far as well. (Coffee with 126 grams half and half, a 4 oz (raw weight) hamburger patty and 5.9 oz raw turnip. I think I will have chicken breast and cabbage tonight. I would REALLY like to get in the real weight loss groove again. I feel cautiously optimistic. I saw some pictures of myself yesterday from when I was at my high (261). It was so shocking. I guess I often forget how much better it is right now. I have been struggling up and down between 176 and 189 basically for the last 2 years now. I am proud to have maintained this weight loss. I've been hard on myself for not losing more (any) during the last 2 years. What I have accomplished IS fantastic though. I forget that. And seeing how much better I look, and remembering how much better I feel, reminds me that it would be worth it to get the last 20-40 pounds that I would like to lose off.

183.8 (noon)

Today I commit to weighing my food... putting it in Fitday, weighing on my scale daily (unless not possible due to work circumstances), and going low carb low calorie. I am committing to doing this for a time duration, NOT until I reach a specific weight. I as always can eat as much low carb as I want (with a dream goal of 700 calories, a happy goal of 1000 calories, and success sub 2000 calories). I am committing to this through May 1st, 2016. 119 Days. During that time period it is POSSIBLE to lose 40.8 pounds. I would be quite happy to get down to 161 (100 pounds lost). But mainly, I want to focus on the actions. My weight will end where it wants to. I've struggled the last 2 years to stay at this weight. I HAVE been successful, but have continued to have reaccuring periods of a week to two weeks during which I basically eat whatever I want to almost binging. I repeatedly have lost 10 pounds and promptly regained it. I would really like to focus on trying to get my body to a place where I am happy with it. I don't know if I will ever be "happy" with my body, because of the skin issues caused by being so overweight, BUT I would like to feel in control and proud of my BEHAVIOR.

184.4 8:15am

185.6 (9:45)