219.0 (9:30am)

Two successes this morning. Weight 219.0. Fasting blood glucose 98 mg/dL. =)

I have never seen my fasting blood sugar that low since I started testing it. That means my low carb diet is starting to do good things to not only my weight my my morning gluconeogenesis. =)

220.2 (9:00am) UGGGGGHHHHH!

OK. Average calories over the last 7 days = 1070 (With the one high day included in there... all the other days were 700-750ish). I DID move to my placebo birth control pills 2 days ago, so maybe it's hormonal water weight retention? I just am not sure. I don't know what to do except keep doing what I should be doing, I guess.

Fasting blood sugar this morning was 102 mg/dL. That is the lowest I've seen (fasting) in a really long time, so I will take it that I am doing something right. I just have to persevere.

I month ago today I was at 228.4. I guess that's were my frustration is coming from. That's only 8.2 pounds down in one month, despite being very very good. I do understand that I release a lot of insulin for any carbohydrate (and for protein or food volume as well). That just makes it that much harder. I am also kinda frustrated that my stomach fat hasn't gone down more than it has. I can see the weight loss a lot in my face, neck, legs, arms and boobs... but my stomach, although it has reduced a lot, still has a long way to go.

219.8 (9:30am)

Calories yesterday: 2256

Fat grams: 152.8

Carbs: 99.9-29.6 fiber = 70.3 NET carbs

Protein: 136.1 grams

This was the highest that I have eaten in over 5 weeks. Everything was low carb, but the carbs still ended up being high because of the large amount of food. I felt the fullest I have felt in a very long time. I didn't feel guilty about it either. I needed a small break I think. I have really struggled over the last week to week and a half. Not losing much weight... I'd been keeping my calories right around 720 each day and not seeing any results.

It made me feel good that after eating so much yesterday, this morning my "high" (full) weight was 219.8. I've made a lot of progress. =)

I am ready to get back down to 700ish a day (low carb) and try to get under 215 now. (I am really focused on getting under 200, but am trying to only focus on the 5 lb increments).

Lunch (12:30pm): 11.5 oz green cabbage sauteed with 6 (beef) lil' smokies (50 grams worth): 191 calories, 15.3 grams fat, 6.3 grams carb, 8.1 grams protein

1 1/2 hours PP blood sugar: 120 mg/dL - higher than I expected to see. I'm still seeing fasting numbers in the 107-110 mg/dL area. I had hoped that I would be seeing lower numbers by now. I am still on the 1000 mg SR metformin each day (taken in the evening).

219.2 (9am)

I got about 10 different weight this morning on my scale, but got 219.2 a bunch of times in a row, so I think it is true. I don't know why my scale does this some days. I really felt like I was lighter than this before I weighed, and saw as low as 218.2, so wonder if that wasn't correct. I normally know what I will weight before I get on the scale, just by telling how my body feels. I really felt like I was lighter than 219.2, but I don't suppose t matters. I just have to stay on plan and it will work itself out eventually. I definitely am looking thinner all the time, despite the slow movement of the scale during the last 2-3 weeks.

220.2 (9:30am)

fasting blood sugar 106 (9:30 am - 1/2 hour after getting up). I ate 1302 calories yesterday. 69.6 grams fat, 75.5-21.1=54.4 grams NET carbs, 102.4 grams protein. I made homemade soup with a ton of veggies and ate about half the pot. Earlier in the day I ate shiritaki noodles with cheese, sour cream and 45 grams of frozen peas. I also ate a strawberry protein shake (make with almond milk), cheddar cheese, and a sugar free popsicle. The day ended up being about 2X what I have been eating for the last 5 weeks. In all everything (calories, fat, carbs, protein). My weight is up 0.4 pounds today. I probably would have finally saw a loss this morning if I wouldn't have had all that soup and cheese last night. I am OK with it though. I HOPE I didn't kick myself out of ketosis. I plan on only eating heavy cream, steak and cheddar cheese today. I think I will take a phendimetrazine if my cravings get bad. (I only ever took the one still from when I got them so long ago).

219.8 (10am)

Ok. It was 219.8 AGAIN. I don't even know how that's even possible when your eating ~700 calories a day. *sigh*. My clothes seem to be fitting better and better though, so I'll just keep on keeping on.

219.8 AGAIN! (9ish am)

I think this is my 4th day in a row at 219.8. I have been perfect... so not sure what is going on. All I can do is keep doing a good diet and hope that it goes down one of these days. Frustrating though!

219.8 (10am)

219.8 (11am)

220.4 (11:15am)

221.0 (8am)

Today marks exactly 1 month (from June 20th) that I have been 100% on plan. I am super happy with how I've done. I am down 18.2 lbs since that time. (I was 239.2 lbs on June 20th). That was my decarbed debloated weight too. I have averaged 650.1 calories per day during that month's time. I have swam 2X and walked 4X I think.

Fitday is showing me the June 23rd - July 20th (the last 4 weeks) as the following averages:

666 calories

43.5 grams fat per day

27.3 (gross carbs) - 7.9 grams fiber = 19.4 grams NET carbs per day

44.1 grams Protein per day

57%fat / 16% carbohydrate / 27% protein

Supposedly (per fitday) I am burning 2531 calories per day now (sedentary, 38, F, 221.0 lbs). That seems to be fairly accurate with the losses I've shown during the last month. I have felt pretty good this whole month. I definately felt better once I was strongly in ketosis. (After the first 2 weeks I started feeling a lot better). This is basically a HCG level diet with the additional fat I make sure to have in 1 meal (to ensure gall bladder daily flushing, eat at least 10 grams fat in 1 meal). Beyond that one meal, I try to keep my food for the day low fat. Net carbs I try to keep at 20-30 max). Protein just kinda ends up where it ends up. My thoughts are that I should try to get at least 40 grams per day and then if I desire more (if meat sounds appealing, then I should strive to get even more). I'm trying to listen to my body in regards to protein intake. There are such differing opinions about what protein requirements are. I am going with minimum requirements and then trying to listen to my body. I think if I can get my hormones in line (through low carb eating), my body should hopefully signal me correctly in regards to protein intake requirements.

Fasting blood sugar this morning (after being up about 2 1/2 hours) 118. I was pretty dissappointed to see that high of a number considering how great I've been with my eating, my minimal newly started exercise and my continued use of 1000 SR Metformin each day. All I can do is keep on doing what I've been doing.

I also wanted to note that I have only ever taken that 1 phendimetrazine since going to the diet doctor last month. Staying in ketosis has controlled my appetite to the extent that even though I have had a few evening where I mentally struggle, I have not had to take any more pills to keep on the diet. They DO continue to reassure me that I have then and they even seem to motivate me to stay on my low carb diet, because I know if I slip up, I'm going to be fighting my hunger again. I haven't decided if I will get a refill or not when August 8th rolls around. My guess is that I should. I know that as I get lower on the scale, I am going to increasingly struggle with hunger (as my leptin levels decrease and my fat cells become increasingly hypotrophic). It would be good to have a decent quantity in reserve for when that time comes. At $89.00 for 60 pills, they are right at $1.50 per pill. They are expensive (for me, as we are on a tight income), but loosing this weight is sooo important. I don't want to have to go through the hassle of starting at the clinic again either and taking the blood tests etc.

222.2 (8am)

Nothing really happened that would put my weight up. I am just going through those natural fluctuations I guess. I am really struggling to get under 220. I remember saying that about 225 though... so just have to remember that losing weight is hard. To expect it to be otherwise is foolish. We went walking again this morning. We have been sticking to the every other day exercise commitment so far... so that's good. =)

221.2 (9am)

I'm really having to fight my way to get under 220. But it will happen. There's this funny thing that happens after I've been successfully dieting for around a month. I start to get this peace about when I will have lost weight by. Normally I spend a lot of time thinking about being under X weight by Y time. But I get this attitude of thinking that it doesn't matter. That it will happen and the days will come whether I am heavier or lighter.

222.0 (8:15am)

222.4 (8:15am)

221.6 (10am)

I was happy to see that weight this morning.

222.8 (9am)

New low. I went to my parents yesterday and was able to stay on track. =) They also noticed my weight loss, so that was nice. My husband and I went walking again this morning. We are trying to commit to exercise every other day. I didn't want to commit to it every day and then fail, so this seemed a better way to start off.

224.0 (8am)

We went and walked around the pond this morning. It was really nice out.

223.6 (12:15)

224.4 (10am)

I wanted to note, I got my ReliOn A1C test results back as a 5.6. That was about what I thought it might be. Hopefully I can someday get it lower when my weight comes off a bit more and I stick to low carb.

224.6 (10:15am)

FINALLY under 225. Man, that was rough. All you can do is keep doing what your doing and eventually it has to come down, but it sure is dissappointing when it takes so long to do so.

226.2 (10am)

Ugh. Not sure why I am still up. Boo!!!!!

I am going in to the diet doctor at noon. I am curious to see what their body fat analyzer says.

Ok. It is later. Last time it measured me at 44.1% body fat and this time at 42.1% body fat.

226.6 (11:30am)

My weight increase of 0.8 lbs today is due to have chicken vegetable soup yesterday (2X). I made homemade chicken broth and then added cut up chicken breast, celery, carrot, onion and cabbage. I salted the heck out of it and I think that accounts for my weight gain. I don't think it was any sort of really weight gain, just water retention. But as I am trying desperately to get under 225, I guess I won't make any more for today even though I made up a ton more chicken broth. (I added the chicken and veggies to the broth after cooking up the broth, so i would get measurements of all of it). Tomorrow I have an appointment at the diet doctor to refill my prescription (even though I still have only taken 1 of the pills I got last time I went). I want to show a great improvement when they weigh me in.

My face / double chin / fat neck situation is really improving, so that's nice. I put on my one piece bathing suit yesterday so I could get a look at the situation. I feel like the back fat is a lot better than the last time I wore it. I am somewhat concerned that my stomach will never be what I would like it to be again. I don't have a ton of stretch marks on it though, so maybe it will bounce back better than I'm thinking.

FBG 107 (45 minutes after getting up, or 12:15 noon to be more accurate (I went to bed at 5am)).

225.8 (11:00am)

I want so bad to get under 225, but I think I've been getting there so slowly, that by the time it happens, it will probably be somewhat of a letdown. Yesterday I looked at fat pictures and food logs/ diet journals covering the last TEN years. It was kinda sad. It breaks my heart that I have spent so many years of my life trying to lose weight. So much energy and thought into something that other people don't even really think about.

226.2 (11:15am)

Slowly but surely.

Measurements:

Fullest part of chest: 47 1/4"

Smallest part of waist: 41"

Waist measurement over belly button: 47 1/2"

Fullest part of butt: 47 1/8"

Fullest part of right thigh: 26 1/4"

Fullest part of right bicept: 14 3/4"

Neck: 15 15/16" (I have a big neck and it is actually one of the body parts I most look forward to shrinking in size)

227.0 (9:45am)

Slowly. Slowly.

227.4 (10:30am)

We went to the park this morning to throw the ball around. I think it was already in the upper 80s when we got there. This heat wave is supposed to end tomorrow. I pray that is the case. I noticed when I was walking up the post office stairs with my box of packages this morning that it is definately easier for me to climb all those stairs with a tub of packages than it used to be. Weight loss is so gradual that it is easy to not notice the changes. I also have a pair of khaki shorts that I used to sssssqueeze into and have a crazy muffin top, or I would even wear with them unbuttoned that now fit great with even some room to spare. I am just focusing on getting under 225 right now. My weight is continuing to come down slowly, but I think I will have to fight to get rid of each one of these pounds in the 220s. I made an appointment for next Monday to go in and get a month's worth of diphenhydramine. I have only taken 1 pill so far (I've had them for 12 days so far), but they make me feel a lot more like I have an option of last resort, so I would like to have the pills on hand in case I later need them. I think that if I stick to the timing and intakes I have been having for the last couple of weeks though, my hunger is managable and my cravings aren't too bad most days.

228.2 (9am)

I saw about 7 different weights on my scale this morning, so I am just going to say I stayed the same and call it good. =)

228.2 lbs (10am)

My guess is that I am going to have to fight really hard to get under 225.