197.0 9am, 97 mg/dL 10am, 1st day of period

The last few days hunger has been severely UP. Must have been increased progesterone. My breasts were really sore. Today was day #1 of my period. I seem to always get a decrease in weight on day #1. I think it's the decrease in water retention.

It is just surreal to be at 197.0. It kinda even makes me angry, because I have tried to lose weight for YEARS now. It's not as if I was just gladly getting fatter each year. I really did try to diet, but I just could never find anything that I could stick with long term (because everything left me so HUNGRY and I would just regain everything when I ultimately gave in to my hunger). My size 16 Levi's are starting to actually fit and I can comfortably wear them all day. The are still a little tighter on the stomach than I would like, but the thighs and butt area are getting to be just right. OK - maybe they are still a little tight, but they are definately wearable. =) It's just really really weird to have a normalish body again. I had gotten so used to just being really really fat. I mean, I know I am still fat, but I am normal American fat again now. I feel so much better in my own body.