190.6 (6:00am)

Almost back under 190.0. Will be glad when that happens. I have been at 700-1000 calories for the last five days. I am going out of town for three days early tomorrow morning. Two days of that will be driving all day. I hope to keep myself on track. I WILL keep myself on track. For the last ten months I have been up and down, up and down, up and down. It really is time to lose a little more weight and stabilize again. Minimum, I would like to stabilize sub 175. I WOULD really like to get under 163 (which I haven't been under for probably 18 years). I did get down to 163 briefly in 2002. By fall of 2003 I was back up to 190's though. (I think??). Anyway.... I haven't been in the upper 150 for SURE since I was 21 years old. So a real strong goal is to get to 159.8. That is 30.8 lbs from now. I know I can do that, I don't know if I can calorie restrict enough after I get there though to stay there. I would like to think that it's possible. I just don't know though. I often dream of getting clear back down to 136, but I honestly don't know if my skin would just look horrible that far down anyway, and it would be major calorie restriction every day and consistently being hungry to hold on to that weight. I am trying to find a happy balance of a weight I look good at, feel healthy at, and can maintain fairly easily with a proper lower carb diet. It looks as if (from my experience from the last year), that anytime I eat high carb, it gives me crazy hunger and I consistently gain (at the rate of 1/2 lb per day). If I eat low carb without calorie restricting at all, I maintain. If I low carb AND calorie restrict, I can lose weight. I would like to think that I could get down to a lower weight than this and not have to calorie restrict too much, but that remains to be seen.