191.2 (High carb, high food, naked, old scale 10:15am)

I was 185.2 four days ago. I have gained 6 pounds in four days. Granted at least 4 pounds of that is carb and food weight, but still, that is quite disappointing. I am back on track now, and will even weigh and record my food in fitday for 3 weeks. I am committing to 700 calorie, recording everything I eat, weighing every day and ketogenic eating through the first of February.

187.4 (5:30am, new scale, naked)

I am out of town on business this morning, but will be headed back late this morning. We bought a new car yesterday and it has been fun to drive it on this trip. It is much more comfortable than our other car (which gets much better mpg's). Yesterday, I ate 3 packs of peanuts, a roma tomato and a large avocado with life. I was hoping to see a lower weight this morning, but have been eating junk the last few days, so am not surprised.

187.2 (noon, naked, home, old scale)

I ate chocolate chip cookies, chocolate chip cookie dough, tortilla chips and salsa yesterday. I am hoping to be back on track today and have a reasonable weigh in tomorrow. I am cooking 4 oz 85/15 ground beef with 8 oz frozen broccoli right now for lunch. I will probably have the same thing (or with cabbage instead) for dinner.

185.4 (11:30am, naked, new scale, in Oregon)

I am pretty happy to start the year at 185.4 lbs. Last year on January 1st I was at 180.4 lbs. I consider the year an amazing success. June 2013 through December 2013 had a major weight loss. To be able to hold onto that weight for a full year is just incredible to me. It has historically been if not easy, at least possible to lose weight. Maintaining the weight loss is a whole other monkey. I had hoped in early December to be back under 183, but I am still really, really pleased to be at 185. I have spent the majority of 2014 around 193-196, so being at 185.4 is quite a nice end to the year. In 2015 I would like to lose another 10-20 pounds and then maintain it for the rest of my life. I KNOW how I have to eat to maintain my weight. I have not recorded food consumption for much of 2014. I consider that a huge cause of my inability to lose my remaining weight and my repeated gains into the upper 190's. HOWEVER, I have been grateful to learn that it is basically possible to maintain my weight loss by eating low carb foods in reasonable portions and not weighing and measuring each and every bite consumed. I will be flying home tomorrow, whereupon I plan to weigh and measure my food EVERY day (that I am not out of town for work) and recording it in Fitday. Weightloss is really slow anymore. I would be happy to lose 1.75 pounds a week now (which would be a 875 calorie deficit per day AND eating HFLC). Basically eating 1000 calories a day will get me a 1.75-2 lb weight loss per week. In a dream world I would get down to 163 and maintain. 22.4 more pounds. It's weird to me that so many New Years Days of my life were imagining a 60,70,80, 120 pound weight loss. To imagine losing ONLY 22.4 pounds just seems ridiculous. Three months of solid Fitday recording, LCHF, 1000 calorie days would land me at 163. (Which is a solid size 12). I AM happy at the weight I am now. I am constantly struggling to be at this weight though. Honestely, I DO recognize that I will spend the rest of my life struggling to stay sub 200 lbs. That is my hand and I will always have the fight against gaining weight back.

Did not weigh in today (out of town) Yesterday 185.2 (9am)

I have been out of town at my parents for the last 18 days. I originally planned to only be here for 7 days, but circumstances made me extend my trip from 1 week to 3 weeks. I am flying home this coming Friday. I didn't weigh in today, but yesterday weighed in at 185.2. I brought my portable scale with me, but just didn't weigh today because things have been crazy.

It has been a good trip and I am grateful to be able to spend so much time with my parents, but I miss my husband. I have only been only been home about 10 days in the last 50 days and it is too long to be away. My youngest dog had to be put down Christmas morning. She went in to the emergency vet at 3:00 a.m. with weird symptoms and x-rays showed she was full of cancer. To say that it was a horrible Christmas and a traumatic time emotionally is an understatement. But it reminded me that life is unpredictable and that my parents won't be around forever... so I need to spend whatever time I can with them. It was really nice to be able to be here and help out when they needed me.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I have been ruminating today on things I hope to accomplish in the coming year. I usually make resolutions each year, or at least think about my life and things I hope to work on in the coming year, if not resolutions exactly. I would like to lose more weight. I am very happy and grateful that I have managed to remain in the 180's and 190's for almost all of 2014, but I would like to finally get down in to the 170's and STAY THERE. It would be really nice to be a size 14 / large and remain there. I would of course prefer to be smaller than that, but I honestly don't think it is possible(?) for me to easily get into the 160's and remain there. I would much rather get to the 170's and not yo-yo any more. But really each day is a struggle to eat as I know I should. I have gathered tricks and tools over the last year and feel confident that I know what I need to do to remain sub 200 lbs, but would like to improve that if I could.

I also would like to improve on my business in the coming year. I will be 40 in 2015 and it is time to have our financial house in order. This includes buying our permanent home and also getting 2 new (to us) cars that are a bit newer. Specifically I would like to put more concentrated effort into expanding our existing business.

190.6 (10am) home, naked, old scale

Fully carbed up weight. I am really disgusted with myself that I have allowed myself to get back up over 190. I don't know why it's so hard to get and stay at 180. I am on track today though. I promise myself.

I am leaving for my parents tomorrow and will be there for 6 days. They tend to be really supportive of my low carb eating, but it is difficult to keep my calories as low as I would like.

190.4 (10:30am)

Still sick. Still spending every day in bed and eating junk. Not cool. I can't seem to get better.

187.2 (old scale 10am naked)

Still sick. Today is day 4. I am making some homemade chicken and vegetable soup and staying in bed all day. I feel a little better, but not enough to go back to my regular life yet. I ate some carbs yesterday, but used some self control. I want to get back 100% on track. This is my carbed up, not excess food the prior day 10am weight. I think my decarbed weight would be 183.6 or so. I am going to put a lot of salt in the soup I am making to help with getting off the carbs again.

187.4 (naked, old scale, at home) day #3 of being sick 10am

So, I am still sick. I ate high carb AGAIN yesterday. Quite disappointed in myself... I just didn't have the oomph to care what I was eating. I am hoping I can get back under 183 quick enough. I am drinking my coffee with 50 grams of heavy cream right now, with plans of being on track today. My throat is sooo sore. My body has the standard flu aches and pains. I feel like I have a mild fever and mild head congestion. I feel a little better than yesterday, so hopefully am on the mend.

189.8 (9am)

I am sick and was yesterday as well. (Sore throat and body aches). I ate a bunch of crap yesterday.

181.8 (old scale) naked 6:00am

I got home last night around 7pm. I am super happy to see 181.8 on the scale this morning. Today is Thanksgiving. I intend to stay low carb.

182.4 (new scale) naked 8:30am

wow. I just am really, really happy each day to be seeing these numbers. It's funny the difference 15 pounds can make in my mindset and body.

183.2 (9:15am) new scale, naked

Well, I am solidly at 183 now. A goal I have aspired to for months and months. I look a lot better in my clothes at this weight than I do in the 190's. My stomach is a lot flatter. My thighs and arms have also lost quite a bit of weight. I am still hoping to get down to sub 180 and ultimately, at least sub 175. It's a sounds like a small goal, but I think it will be hard to get there and stay there. I would like to think that being in the 185-195 range for about a year will make it easier to lose some more. I would like to think that my body is getting more accustomed to this weight. Mentally I am used to it now. This just seems like the body I should have in my head... so maybe it will be easier to get further down the scale.

183.4 (naked) (new scale) 9:30am

So, I am solidly below 185. It feels great. Last year when I was losing all the weight, I really just focused on each 5 pounds. I am ready to go back to the mindset. When I gained back up over 190, it just became impossible to think of it in that manner, because I felt so desperate to just be back down where I was. I think this is a common problem for people who regain weight. The focus way to hard on the 23 pounds they have regained (or whatever it is) and not enough on the 5 small pounds that they need to look at. The 23 pounds becomes overwhelming and too hard to think about in the first week of the diet and you keep falling off. When instead, if you just focus on each 5 pound increment, it's not so overwhelming. 5 pounds generally takes me a few weeks, so that is all I can focus on at a time. Any more than that, and I just start feeling overwhelmed with how far I have to go.

183.0 (new scale) naked (10:00am)

Wow. I was really happy to see 183.0 on the scale this morning. I haven't seen this weight since I was in Austin last May. I have tried and tried to get back to this weight and just was unable to do so. If I can even hold on to it and get back under 180, it will be a major, major accomplishment.

Last year, during the week before Christmas I saw my (12 year?) low of 176.6 I think. I would be really cool if I could be there at that time again. I really am going to work for it. I am nervous about it, because I will be going home, and it is so much harder to control myself 24/7 there (versus a 4X a day for 30 minutes each, here). It is possible of course. I HAVE been in ketosis since I've been here as well, which should make it a lot easier, as long as I keep eating ketogenically. I intend to. There is nothing coming up that is worth feeling gross in my skin.

184.4 (new scale) naked 9:15am

Solid sub 185. I will take it! :)

I have 5 days left here. Hopefully I can lose another 2 pounds. Maybe 1.4 even would make me really happy. I will just continue doing what I have been doing. Tacos for lunch (I will make it into a taco salad) and roast beef for dinner. A good day for meals (although I was only able to have 1 oz of peanut butter for breakfast as everything was really carb heavy).

184.2 naked (new scale) 9:45am

It was really nice to finally be back below 185 this morning. I haven't seen this weight for a few months. I still am about 7-8 lbs higher than my low at last Christmas.

185.4 (new scale) naked 8:30am

I am still out of town. SOOOO close to being under 185 again! :) This trip out of town has been a little tiring mentally, but the weight loss almost makes it worth it. I turns out I am able to control myself for 20 minutes at a time four times a day, easily. It's just the all day, every day in your face food that is hard to resist.

187.8 (wearing yoga pants, long sleeve shirt, sports bra, panties and socks) (facility scale) 9:15am

Really happy with what my weight is doing. I have been quite strict with myself and am really happy that it is paying off.

187.0 (new scale) naked 8:15am

I can really see the changed in my body from just losing back to where I am now. It really is giving me motivation to lose back to where I was at my lowest (for the last 18 months) of 176 or thereabouts.

189.0 (wearing clothes) facility scale 6:30am

:)

188.8 (new scale) naked, 9:30 am

Still going well... I ended up right at 1000 calories yesterday I think. I had to really estimate on some breaded chicken strips for dinner, but I did the best I could.

190.8 (8:30am) (facility scale) with yoga pants, panties, bra, socks and long sleeve shirt on

I am super excited to be back under 190. (Without clothes, which is my normal weight reference). I don't know the weight of what I am wearing, but my educated guess is about 1.5 - 1.7 pounds.

It's been going very well food wise. I am able to peruse the following day's menu and then decide beforehand what I should eat out of that, enter it in fitday and try to come up with what I should be eating to get the best results. It has been working really well. Sometimes the quality of food is such that I have to change my game plan on the fly, but it has generally been working quite well. (Some disgusting pork for dinner the night before last and a gross apple last night...).

I am starting to feel different in my body again. It is amazing the difference 10 pounds can make in how you feel in your body. I should try to remember that. Ten pounds often doesn't seem like it matters to me (and is probably why I was able to go so far up the scale as I did), but you can really feel the difference.

Today is done other than the scheduled meals, so I am just going to take it easy... although I do think I will do a 45 minute easy walk.

191.4 (8am) wearing clothes (new scale and facility scale)

I keep hoping to see sub 190 on the scale, but have to remind myself this is my clothed weight this week, which means I have lost about 0.6 lbs plus the weight of the clothes I am wearing right now (which is probably around 1.6 - 1.8 lbs. So that is really good. My new scale and the facility scale match on weight, so that is really nice as well. It makes me think they are both consistently accurate.

I don't remember what meals I will be facing today. I hope they are easily navigated.

191.8 (new scale) (with clothes) (9:15am)

I expected to be lighter than this today. I *feel* lighter, so I think the scale just hasn't caught up with my weight loss yet. It's going well here, I am still sticking to around 1000 calories per day. I might try to go a tiny bit lower today, although I am not sure if it is possible without drawing awkward attention to my eating.

191.4 (new scale and facility scale) (8:10am) (in clothes)

It's going well here. I can see what all the meals will be for the day and preplan what I will eat... I can generally pick and choose enough of the meal to be spot on where I want to be nutritionally. I have to eyeball sizes, which is the worst part. I brought a tiny food scale with me, but it would be weird if I used it, so I will be unable to.

Yesterday I had a deconstructed ham and egg wrap with salsa and sour cream. Maybe milk for breakfast? For lunch a deconstructed meat and cheese sandwich. For dinner a green salad and milk. For snack peanuts and diet soda. I probably ended up around 1200 calories, which is a little higher than I would like, but was really close nutritionally to what I want to stick to. So I am super happy with it.

Today I will be navigating through a breakfast cereal breakfast. Lunch tacos, dinner roast beef and potato meal and snack of oatmeal cookies and milk I think. So I should be able to get spot on with some planning ahead in Fitday.

I walked about half an hour as well yesterday. I will try to do the same today I think. Maybe even a touch longer.

191.4 (new scale) wearing about 2 lbs of clothes (7am)

I think I am probably back under 190. :) Super exciting. I was tired of being in the 190's. I have 3 more weeks here in Indiana and then I will go home. I think I should be able to pretty strictly be at -1000 calories per day, so I am hoping for 6 pounds of weight loss during this time. That would be best case scenario of course, but even 4 or 5 lbs would be great. I am so ready to be back below 185 and able to focus on getting into the 170's.

It's going well here... just trying to get through the days until I can go home. I miss DH and the dogs horribly.

191.2 (new scale) 4:30am

I didn't get a weigh in for some reason today. Maybe they don't do them here? Not sure. I just had lunch. It was a meatball sub with baked chips, cauliflower with ranch, carrot sticks and celery and orange sherbet. I had the meatballs, the diet coke and the raw vegetables. Hopefully I can lose weight while I am up here. It looks pretty definite that I will be here for the next 23 days. I will find out for sure tonight or in the morning.

192.0 (new) 6:30am

This has been a lazy low carb day out of town. I go to work tomorrow. Kinda nervous as usual, as I haven't been here before. My back hurts from driving so far. Going to go to bed early.

191.4 (9:30am) old scale

I had cream with caffeine free hot tea for breakfast yesterday. We went to Golden Corral for lunch and I had a green salad, a bunch of veggies, pork steak, a bunch of battered mini shrimp and 2 bites of carrot cake. For dinner I had a McDonalds side salad with ranch with a cut up double cheeseburger on it. (no bun).