182.6 (9:30 am) (3rd day in Texas)

I am working in Texas for the next 19 days. I am hoping to get my weight back under 185 during that time. I even plan to do a little walking each day. Eating like a machine for the 2 weeks around thanksgiving put a solid 7 pounds or so on me. Not sure why I did that beyond PMS. Just a horrible trend.

183.2 (9:15am)

I've eaten like a pig for the last 6 days or so. PMS or gluttony, I'm not sure.

174.8 (11:30am)

Well, getting under 175 was a tremendous accomplishment. To say it has been HARD is such an understatement. I still would at some point like to get down to 161 (100 pounds lost). It's been so difficult just getting to 174.8 though, that I just don't know if it is possible. I am hoping that my continued weight loss will equate to greater insulin sensitivity.

80.45 kg (10am) (177.36lbs) wearing t-shirt, yoga pants, panty, bra and socks) after drinking 16 oz water

I am REALLy close to 175 (naked, no food, no water, morning weight) I think. I THINK I am at a new low. I feel like I am. I can feel all my ribs really readily now (front and back). I head home in 4 more days. I am hoping to be able to get solidly under 175 before leaving. That would be really awesome. I haven't been at 175 in a very long time. I think it's been since 2002? Somewhere in there. I should be able to get out some old winter clothes out of storage that should fit well now. That's exciting. One of the favorite parts of weight loss for me is getting out old clothes that I used to wear and trying them on again and having them fit. I remember when I was 250-260, going through all my old clothes and just thinking that they were so SMALL. It's kinda weird to have weight loss work after having it not work for so long. I also think it's really fortunate that I stabilized at 180-195 for around 20 months. I almost don't believe that I can lose any more weight from here. Each pound is very, very difficult to lose. However, I do believe it benefits me (better for my joints and insulin sensitivity), so I keep on trying. Whether it is sustainable in the long run, I just don't know. It's so very easy for me to go home after a business trip and regain all I've lost in a matter of 10-14 days. It's so hard not to allow that to happen every time. Honestly, I know my life won't change at all, by being any thinner than I am now. If anything, I worry about what my skin will look like. I will look better in clothes, but worse out of clothes. My breasts are back down to a solid B cup. If I had the time off of work and the faith in cosmetic surgeons required, I would have a circumferential body lift (tummy tuck), but I doubt I will ever go that route. Perhaps if I get another 30 pounds off and the state of affairs is too depressing, I would... I just doubt I ever will.

I feel good lately though. Hopeful that I have finally figured out how to beat obesity. It still requires a tremendous amount of daily weighing and depriving me of a lot of the foods I would prefer to eat. But I do feel like I solidly understand what I need to do to maintain my weight sub-200 pounds. I would like to say sub-190 pounds, but I do know that I plan to NEVER allow it to get over 200 again. I think that may be the benefit of having stayed at this weight for as long as I have. It really gave my brain a chance to get used to being this weight. I no longer feel skinny at this weight. I feel normal. Even though this is the thinnest weight I have been in a very, very long time.

178.8 (9am)

I'm still in KC. Quite happy to be at this weight this morning. I am GOING to get under 175 once and for all.

181.2 (10:30am) (In K.C.)

This is my low carb weight. I'm fairly ok with it. I will be in K.C. another 12 days and hope to make a 3-4 pounds loss. Today the food menu looks to be incredibly carb heavy, so not sure how well I can do. I just skipped breakfast, as it was just starches and sugar.

181.2 (9:30am) home

Home. Had a large Reese's mix with extra Reeses, but otherwise just ate low carb.

182.6 (7am pacific) travel scale

Today is my last full day in Oregon. Luckily, I have managed to get my weight back down to 182.6. I'll fly home to Oklahoma Wednesday and drive to Kansas Wednesday night. On Thursday I will then drive down to Austin. It's going to be a long couple of days.

183.6 (6:30am p.t)

Low carb, low food weight. Lost the exercise water weight retention. Hopefully tomorrow will be a tiny bit lower and I will be fine for next week.

187.6 (6:30am) full carb, exercise water retention

In Oregon right now. Ate potatoes and cake last night. Walked about a mile and a half yesterday morning and the previous day. My muscles feel sore, so hopefully a lot of this is water retention. Either way, setting this weight this morning scared me. I a interview for a job in six more days. I don't know if I am supposed to be under 32 or 30 BMI. Either way, I'll get under 30. Just wish this wasn't a recurring theme. DH is down to 195, I need to get my act together.

181.6 (9am) naked, in Texas

I had probably 150-200 grams of carbs yesterday, so I was quite happy to see 181.6 on the scale this morning. I AM trying. DH has lost about 15-20 pounds of fat and put on 5-10 pounds of muscle, so I am trying to improve my body as well. He has got amazingly fast results from his lifestyle change.

185.0 (9:15am) naked, travel scale in Texas

This is my carbed up weight. Day number 1 of my cycle. This last week was tough hunger-wise and the scale definitely reflects that. I am GOING to log and weigh every day. I can't stand this higher weight. Even though it is not much of my new normal, I can feel it. I just want to be really serious and lose 20 more pounds. It shouldn't be as hard as it's been. I feel like I have tried really hard over the last 20+ months and have lost no weight. Maybe this is just how hard I have to try to maintain. I am ok with that. Trying this hard to maintain, is OK. I just really would like to be thinner than I am right now. I would like to feel more agile.

186.6 (wearing green cargo pants, bra, panties, and two t-shirts)

Really struggling here. I am down in Texas working. All food here is quite carby. I will do my best.

184.6 (7:30am) home

I ate a lot of food yesterday (3000 calories?), but all low carb. I went walking this morning with DH. I am going to try to implement a regular walking routine.

183.4 (7am) 184.4 (clothed)

I'm still down in Texas. It's still hotter than it should be.

182.4 (10am)

Ate a pint of Ben and Jerry's yesterday, along with 2 smallish apples, peanuts and cheese. So, my weight is up a bit this morning. I really feel solid at this low 180's weight and would really like to tighten everything up nutritionally/calorically and get down to the low 160's. If I put everything into it, I think that would take me 8-10 weeks. Now staying there would be a bear. But I really, really think I am ready to commit to getting a little lower on the scale. I'm not sure things will look any better with my clothes off (in fact I am scared things might look worse), but with clothes ON, I am sure I will look better and I think I would FEEL better.

180.8 (10am)

182.4 (183.8 clothed) (6am)

105 degrees out yesterday. TOO hot. I am down in Texas this morning at a hotel. I should be able to get headed home around noon I think.

182.6 (6:15am)

182.0 (7:45am)

Better... but still trying to get back under 180.

184.4 (8am)

Man, it's just really really hard for me to get and stay under 180.

183.8 (184.8 clothed) (5:00am)

I'm in Kansas City. I have a long day ahead of me.

183.2 (9am)

Dieting is still going rough. I am in the high progesterone phase of my cycle and it just makes it really hard to restrict my eating.

183.8 (8am)

I'm pretty tired of dieting. Yesterday was hard. I really wanted a ice cream treat, but I stayed on track. Some days this is hard.

184.8 (10:30 am)

We went to Golden Corral for lunch yesterday at 3pm and then last night I had a pork steak with sauerkraut. I didn't weigh until 10:30, but I plan to be on plan 100% for these next four days. I am hoping to work in Kansas City in 5 days for a week and a half. I should find out tomorrow if I will be going.

183.8 (10am)

183.8 (184.4 clothes) (5:15am)

I'm in Kansas City this morning. Hopefully today goes well.

183.8 (9:45am)

I overate low carb items yesterday.

184.8 (8:30)

Five more days to be solidly under 30 BMI (wearing clothes). I may actually already be there, but want to give myself some wiggle room.

186.2 (8am)

Yesterday - bacon and eggs for breakfast, Mexican restaurant for lunch, boiled egg and 2 ham, cream cheese and pickle rollups for dinner. I can lose 3 pounds over the next six days.

185.0 (9:15)

I am just so tired of regaining what I lose.

184.8 (7:30am)

Ate Chinese food at the chinese buffet yesterday. Then I came home and ate low carb, but copious quantities of it. Eleven ounces cheese, 4 eggs, cabbage, onions, mushrooms, peanuts... probably there was something else that I am not remembering. Anyway, I have GOT to get back on track. I am super upset to be as high as I am this morning. I am hoping with three days back on track I can be back below 180. We will see.

181.0 (4am)

I am down in Texas this morning, but will be driving home around noon. Hopefully I will get home around 7 or 8pm. It was 95 degrees down here yesterday, so I hope I have a good travelling day. I am really struggling to eat on plan since getting back from Maryland. Today will make 1 week since leaving Maryland and I don't think I have had but 2 good days during that time.

183.0 (6am) Carbed up very full weight

Ugh... I can't believe I have been home 4 days and I am up 6.8 lbs. I am back on track this instant. I disgust myself with this crap.

177.0 (old & new scale 6am home)

I was pretty disappointed to see 177.0 this morning. I was spot on perfect yesterday and was pretty darn good coming home the day before yesterday. I really expected to see 175.8 or something this morning. Oh well. It is what it is. I still am sore from some exercises I did yesterday and I drank about a 2 liter of diet mountain dew as well, so maybe I am just retaining a bit of water.

176.2 (7:15am)

So, I made my weight loss goal for my time here in Maryland. I am super stoked to be at an all new low. It's exciting to have a new goal, instead of just trying to relose weight I've already lost (and then regained).

176.4 (10:50am) 176.6 (9am)

I weighed twice this morning because i was so hopeful to see an all new low. And it happened! I leave Maryland tomorrow, and and so pleased to be seeing a new low on the scale. I really, really intend to keep myself in line when I gt home and really work on getting down below 170 (for now). Ultimately, I would really like to at least get down to 161. It can happen, but I'm not sure how easy it would be to maintain. I won't know until I try.

177.0 (9am)

177.4 (6am)

Today of TOM day #1. Glad to get that out of the way. Maybe my weight will come down a couple of pounds in the next couple of days with the water weight loss. I didn't have breast tenderness this last week though, so maybe I didn't retain much water. Not sure.

177.0 (9:45am)

177.4 (8am)

I have 4 more days here in Maryland. I hope I can get down to 176, but it's not looking to hopeful. TOM is coming up, so I should have some water weight gain soon.

178.6 (8:30am)

Man, getting under 175.0 is going to be hard. I've really been working at it, but these are just some really tough pounds to lose I guess.

178.4 (7:15am)

I hoping to lose another 2 pounds before I leave Maryland in eight days. That will put me at an all new low (12 years?). Anyway, I'm getting close to a virgin low weight again, and I am getting to the high progesterone point of my cycle (period due in 7 days), so I am sure I will really be fighting to control my eating (hunger) and getting to this new weight. In fact, I don't really think it can happen, if watching my weight daily for the last 2 years has taught me anything. I just have to much of a water retention, hunger swing at the end of the month.

179.8 (7:10am)

It feels good to be back under 180. I don't feel happy about it, as much as relieved.

181.2 (7:30am)

I walked 1h 18min yesterday so my weight is up 0.6 lbs today (muscle water retention). I have been working on doing some walking, trying to get my pulse down a little. Food consumption has also been going well. I have exactly 2 weeks left until I go home. I am hoping to lose 4-6 lbs in that time. I have put it straight out in my Fitday goal that I am now working on getting down to 161.2 (100 pounds lost). I have 20.0 pounds to go from here. I will re-evaluate when I get there, if I want to go down any further. I feel like my chest might be a hot mess if I go down any further in weight, but then I will look a lot better IN clothes. I'm just going to have to try to balance it I guess.

183.4 (7:45)

My weight is coming down a little. I ate a bag of chips, 2 slices of white bread and 2 cookies that I shouldn't have yesterday (as well as a ton of baby carrots that are ok, but higher carb as a vegetable goes). I really want to watch it, but keep making bad choices. I am not sure why I am struggling so much right now with making better choices. Sometimes it is harder than others for sure. The biggest thing though is to weigh EVERY day and to keep trying.

185.2 (9:15am)

I have 22 full days left and then I go home. I haven't been able to lose any weight since getting here. I intend to REALLY try now though. I can do 22 days of strict restriction. I need to do that. I just haven't had it in me mentally or physically up until now. Part of it was hormonal I'm sure. I AM in the better part of my cycle hormonally, so I hope it makes a good difference. I have been blathering about wanting to get down to 175 or even 163 for the last year and a half. That's kind of silly. Ten or twenty pounds is nothing compared to what I have already done. I need to make it happen. I WILL make it happen.

187.0 (7:10am)

This is my carbed up weight... but still. I am getting my act together.

185.6 (10am)

I think I have actually gained weight since coming here. Unacceptable!

184.8 (10am)

I have 27 more days here in Baltimore. I am hoping to lose 8 lbs during that time. That would place me at 177 lbs. It's funny, how two years ago, I would have thought it was impossible to ever get back down to this weight, and a fantastical dream to get back into the 170's. I STILL would like to manage to get into the 160's. I've been working on it for a long time, and I continue to eat junk once i get under 180. It's like I can't help myself. I do want to eliminate this thick stomach area I have though.

On a happy note, my skin is amazing. I have looseness, but my skin is soft and supple. I continue to be surprised at how good it feels. I know it takes YEARS for skin to replace itself completely, so it makes sense that it will continue to improve as time goes on. I have been drinking a hot gelatin drink (when at home) to hopefully improve my skin, hair and nails. I think it's still improving.

186.8 (8:30am) carbed up weight

So I ate 2 cookies, a hamburger bun, a roll, two pieces of wheat wonder bread, a small piece of garlic bread and spaghetti (and two cups of milk) yesterday. This is my carbed up weight. I'm hoping to get my period today. I am tired of these hormones.

185.0

I just have NOT been able to get control of myself. This is my high progesterone week (PMS) and my hunger has just been insatiable. I am hoping I can get control of it starting right now. I expect my weight will be up tomorrow morning. I ate a ton of carbs (provide by my employers) at lunch and dinner today. My weight will probably be over 187 tomorrow... maybe even 188. I'm disappointed in myself, but this also happens every month, so I don't know why I would continue to be surprised by it. It's just really hard for me to fight that hormonal hunger.

184.8 (9:30 am) in Baltimore

I am up over 5 1/2 pounds from where I was in Austin. That is pretty disappointing. I had way to much ice cream in that time after Austin. I am trying to be on plan here, but it is hard. Today is my 6th day here. I am going to be on point today and I am going to start logging EVERYTHING in fitday. I have said that so many times over the last year and a half. It's been almost 2 years since I changed my life. I need to continue making the effort.

182.8 (9am)

I had a large DQ Reeses Blizzard last night around 7pm. Other than that, I have been on track (but not restricting calories) for the last 4 days. I am trying to eat on plan (calories not overly restricted though) and then have treats when I go out if I REALLY want them. For the last year and a half, I have struggled with eating carby junk thats already in the house (examples: Fig Newtons, sour cream and onion chips, tuna sandwich, m&m's, etc, treats that aren't my 1st choice, they are junk my husband has in the house). What I want to work on, is NOT eating off plan stuff in the house. IF I want a treat enough to go out and specifically make a special trip to get it, then it would be "ok" to occasionally indulge. What I have been doing though, is going off plan, with food that isn't even special to me. That's ridiculous.

182.4 (8am)

I ate around 2000 calories yesterday. All were low carb.

183.8 (6am)

I was on track yesterday, so I think I still have a few pounds of glycogen related water weight on me.

179.2 (8:30 naked, new scale)

Finally I am back under 180. I am leaving Texas tomorrow though and plan on getting a DQ Reeses Blizzard (large with extra candy) on my drive home tomorrow. So, it will put me back up over 182 I am sure. I aim to really be on plan after that indulgence though (low carb, tracked, etc). I feel thinner than I have in a long time and it is nice. I still am trying to get under 175. It will happen eventually. I am ok with it being a longer process though.

181.8 (10:30am) home

I ate a ton of food yesterday which included about 12-15 nutter butter cookies last night, liver and onions, 700 calories of sunflower seeds, 2 truckstop polish sausages, 2 packages of peanuts, some sugar free chocolate and 2 oz of cheese. I was FULL last night, which was nice. I am sad I ate the nutter butters though. I shouldn't have. I am also sad I ate as much as I did. I think I might have eaten as much as gaining a 1/2 to 3/4 pound (calorie wise). My husband is smoking ribs today, so I am worried about how much I am going to eat today too. I REALLY don't want to gain weight this weekend.

179.4 (new scale, 9:30am)

50 hours left until I can head home. I am ready to be off from work for a few days. I am not looking forward to the 8 hour drive to get home though. Yesterday was good. I was hungry ALL day though. I'm hoping today isn't quite as hungry of a day. I really really really want to get under 175. I can remember so many different occasions when I weighed 175 and honestly, it's a pretty good weight for me. A comfortable weight for my body.

179.4(8:30 new scale naked)

woohoooooo! :)

I am pretty excited to be under 180. I didn't think it would happen today, but then it did. I can't believe how loose my jeans have gotten. I really have lost some weight from my stomach and arms and butt. I really don't ever imagine a few pounds would make any difference, but I can really tell. I've lost 2 pounds in the last week that I've been gone, which isn't great, but is great FOR ME. I lose so slowly anymore. I think it's because my daily burn rate has decreased so much. It used to be like 2600 when I was a lot heavier and it is under 1900 now. I could up my daily activity to increase it, but my history has shown that it is counter-productive for ME to do that. (It increases my appetite too much and I binge eat).

I leave in 76 hours. I am ready to head home. It's been fine down here in Texas, and I am excited to be losing weight, but I miss being home.

180.2 (8:45 new scale naked)

I was so happy to see 180.2 lbs on the scale this morning. So close to the 170's. It's just almost seems impossible to lose weight anymore, so I really am exciting to have made some headway. It doesn't seem like these last 10 pounds would make much difference, but it really has.

181.0 (8:30am) travel scale naked

I feel so close to getting under 180! It's kinda surreal. I feel so much thinner than I do at 190. You wouldn't think that it would make much of a difference. I think I am not even perceived as being really fat anymore. Maybe a little chubby and definitely not THIN, but I think I probably am just perceived as being a normal 40 year old size. It's nice. I think if I could just get down to 170, I might truly be thought of as being normal size. I am of course in the overweight BMI range. I would have to get down clear to 154 or something to be in the normal weight range. I think it's possible, but I don't know how realistic it will be for me. If it happens, it would be nice, but honestly, I am more concerned about how my skin looks at whatever weight I end up at. I really want my thighs to allow me to wear shorts without feeling self-conscious. I wore shorts at 261. My skin was nice and smooth. As I've lost weight, I am developing almost what looks like cellulite. It's not though, because when I lift on my upper butt area (like a body lift would do), the area is smooth like it should be. I do not have the connecting tissue that women have that causes the dimpling (they are like little tether lines or something). Anyway, it's just an excess skin issue of it not pulling tight. I hate it. It really makes me feel for thin women who have cellulite. It makes you hate your legs to not have them be nice and smooth. I of course also have the excess stomach skin as well. It bulges out at the sides in a muffin top fashion even without clothes on. My belly button looks like a frown too. And I have some rollover skin at the bottom of my stomach. Not a lot, but I am not fond of it, to be sure. I could definitely stand to have a body lift when my weight loss is done, but I won't. My arms are ok. They are not great and they are not bad. There is excess skin, but certainly not enough to prevent me from wearing tank tops. Which is important, as hot as it gets down here in the summers. I fantasize about having the skin from when I was at 180 coming up the scale. It was so much firmer. My skin DOES feel amazingly healthy. Supple and well conditioned. It's not dry like it used to be before my change to LCHF. My nails have become amazingly strong in the last month or two as well. I am not sure what prompted that change, but it makes me super happy. I have been plagued my whole life with thin nails that are prone to peeling in layers or bending back and cracking. I know that it has been caused by nutritional deficiencies, but despite supplementation, was never able to get them to a healthy state. I have five more days down here in Texas, then I will be going home for 4 days and then coming back down here to work for 8 more days. It is really easy to manage my diet while I am down here. I am hopeful to be able to lose a total of 3 more pounds during the 13 total days spent down here. I am sure I will have some rebound up the scale when I go home. My husband is planning to smoke some ribs and pork shoulder. I will eat to fullness on that. I will NOT eat a bunch of high carb junk.

183.8 (clothed at work 8:30am)

181.4 (8am)

I am getting close to getting under 180. It feels super exciting. I am leaving today on business. I'll come back in about a week and a half for 3 days and then leave again for another week and a half. I will come home on May 6th. I'll be working in Texas. That all should be about 3 weeks. I hope to average a pound a week loss while I am gone. As usual, meals will be provided and quite carby.

183.2 (8:30 am) 181.6 (10:15am)

Finally, a new low. (Not a new low in the context of the last 2 years of weight loss, but I think this is the lowest weight I have seen in about a year). I still have about 5 pounds to go to get under my two year low (achieved 16 months ago). My body REALLY wants to stay in the 180's I think. I have never lost such tough weight as this.

184.0 (9:30)

I am having a devil of a time getting under 180. I'm working on it. Easter was a higher calorie day (but still low carb). I feel like my body is changing though. Lots of people noticed I look thinner at Easter, so it must be working. I just kind of expected to be under 180 by now.

183.8 (8:30am)

I'm still on track with calories and logging. It's been hard. I've been HUNGRY. It's funny, at 183, not being able to imagine getting back under 180. I've tried for the last 15+ months to get back under 180 and been unable to do it, so it's just become this huge mental barrier.

183.8 (noon)

Last night was HARD. I made it, but it was really tough. I am going to take it easy today.

185.2 (11am)

Yesterday was successful. I ate appropriately and logged everything in Fitday. I am starting off today on track as well. I am just trying to string a bunch of successful days in a row here. That's my focus. Not weightloss. The actions. I need the actions to be consistent.

This afternoon I am going in to get another laser tattoo removal session. This will be my 4th. $30 each session to remove a tiny (smaller than a dime) tattoo on my ankle. It's going well so far. I also plan on stopping by the grocery store and getting some more vegetables. That's all I have planned for today. I'm just focusing on the correct diet actions. Period.

186.2 (10am) home scale

I was high carb day before yesterday, eating skittles and iced lemon cookies (about 300-400 grams of carbs). Yesterday I was 100% on track calorically and micro-wise. I am down 3.0 pounds today (water weight). I am hoping to quickly get back down under 185. I am working really hard right now to mentally get myself in a good place. I want to consistently track in Fitday again. I did yesterday and am working on it today. I am in the good place in my monthly cycle now for not fighting cravings and struggling as much. I am hoping to consistently (EVERY day track and be on target with my nutrition).

I have a trip down to Texas coming up this weekend (leaving on Sunday) and will come back late Monday night. I plan to remain 100% on track.

I have ordered the books "The Bulletproof Diet" and "The Thin Commandments Diet" from my library and will be reading them to hopefully keep my motivation up. I feel comfortable at this weight 185-190. I no longer feel thin at this weight. I think that means that I am really ready for the 2nd part of my journey. I KNOW that it is going to be really hard to take off more weight and keep it off. I really feel as if the stress on my joints and the appearance of my arms and stomach will improve with additional weightloss.

I am shooting for absolute strictness now. Weighing food on digital scale, logging food in Fitday, meeting macro goals as well as caloric goals and weighing myself each day.

Lately, I just have felt in an emotional funk. I want to get out of it and work on achieving my goals.

185.8 lbs (10am)

I'm trying so hard to get back below (and STAY below) 30 BMI. My body just wants me to be the in the 190 range. I think it is going to take a ton of effort to get below 180 and stay there. Right now at 185.8, I shouldn't have a huge task in front of me to get to sub 180, but I think this may end up being the hardest weight I will ever try to lose. I just lived so long at the weight I am now. My body seems incredibly comfortable with it and holds here tenaciously.

187.0 (11am)

I have remained low carb, but have been eating to appetite if not more. I expected to see 187.0 if not more on the scale this morning. I guess I am good with it. My PMS symptoms have been quite strong for the last 4-5 days and I think I have been experiencing a lot of progesterone mediated hunger. My breasts are still quite tender and my period still isn't here, so I expect to fight hunger today as well, when I attempt to restrict caloric intake. I will do the best I can.

Today is Saturday. I am leaving next Wednesday to drive ~1200 miles down to central Florida. I will only be down there for 1 day and then will turn around and drive back. I am pretty excited about the trip, as I have never been through any of those states really. It will be nice to see all that part of the U.S. If things turn out as I hope, I will then come home for a couple weeks and then go back to spend about a month there again.

184.4 (9AM)

So close to being back under 183. I really hope (plan) to lose 20 more pounds and get under 165. I think it would REALLY make a difference in how fat I was perceived to be. Hopefully it would also improve my energy and joint pain. I still occasionally get popping in my knees.

I have been logging my food in fitday again. It seems to be helping (as usual). I need to consistently get to tracking again. I think my lack of tracking over the last year has really contributed to my inability to get back under my low (176 or thereabouts) and make more headway.

187.8 (5am) new scale, out of town

I was pleasantly surprised to see 187.8 this morning. I've been home from my mom and dad's slightly less than three weeks and felt that I had gained more than the 3-4 pounds I am up. Today is the fifth day I am strictly back on low carb. It was kinda a free for all there for a little while after I got home. Never intentional stuff, but consistently eating my husband's treats that he keeps in the house. I just could not stay out of them! Which is very disappointing, as I don't even favor the same treats as he does.

Anyway, I drove up to Kansas last night and I will hopefully be here through Friday, although it is possible I will head home this evening. I slept horribly in this hotel room. My sleep has been all over the place (time-wise) the last 2-3 weeks and it just made it really hard to go to sleep last night. If at all possible this afternoon, I am going to take a nap (meaning if work doesn't interupt).

187.0 (noon) low carb the prior day ~1200 calories

I went to bed last night at 4am and got up and noon again. I am going to try to go to bed at a normalish time tonight! I need to get back on a regular schedule.

I fixed a fuse in my car this afternoon. So it's been a productive day so far. I think I am going to run to the store and get some silicone spray and a turkey baster. (Car windows and automotive suction tool). It's beautiful out and it's a shame to be spending today cooped up inside. Maybe that will help today be easier food wise as well. Day #3 is always a bit tough.

187.4 (noon)

So, I was 100% on plan yesterday and my weight is down 4.8 lbs from the exact same time yesterday. I didn't get up until noon, so I am really curious what my early morning weight is 8-9am. Anyway, yesterday was hard to get through, but I made it. Today will be hard too, I am sure. I really would like to get below 183 (early morning weight) before the end of the month. I don't know how doable it is... I will just have to do the best I can and I guess the weight will fall where it falls.

192.2 lbs (noon) ate a lot of food yesterday, fries and battered chicken strips at 2am

So, I am really struggling. Luckily necessity will keep me on the straight and narrow for the next 6 days. I am leaving to spend a few days out of town next Tuesday. I intend to be 100% on plan for these next 6 days, then to do the best I can with the food that I will be supplied while out of town. I hope to have another business trip as well before the end of the month.

188.4 (noon, home, old scale, ate ~2000 calories last night, including cookies)

Yesterday came really close to being successful at then at 10pm, I lost control and ate and ate. Which makes me sad. I REALLY intended yesterday to be spot on. At least my weight is back in the 180's. I intend to be perfect today and then get a morning weight (as apposed to this noon weight today) tomorrow.

190.0 (oreos and 2 tortillas the prior day ~3000 calories) 11:30am

Just for future information -

July 1, 2013 to July, 31st 2013:

average calories: 751

fat grams: 49.5

carb grams: 31.9-9.4 =22.5 net carbs

protein grams: 48.4

weight lost: 228.2 ----> 219.0

9.2 lbs / 30 days =1073 deficit per day ----> 1824 calories used per day @ roughly 225 lbs.

191.2 (High carb, high food, naked, old scale 10:15am)

I was 185.2 four days ago. I have gained 6 pounds in four days. Granted at least 4 pounds of that is carb and food weight, but still, that is quite disappointing. I am back on track now, and will even weigh and record my food in fitday for 3 weeks. I am committing to 700 calorie, recording everything I eat, weighing every day and ketogenic eating through the first of February.

187.4 (5:30am, new scale, naked)

I am out of town on business this morning, but will be headed back late this morning. We bought a new car yesterday and it has been fun to drive it on this trip. It is much more comfortable than our other car (which gets much better mpg's). Yesterday, I ate 3 packs of peanuts, a roma tomato and a large avocado with life. I was hoping to see a lower weight this morning, but have been eating junk the last few days, so am not surprised.

187.2 (noon, naked, home, old scale)

I ate chocolate chip cookies, chocolate chip cookie dough, tortilla chips and salsa yesterday. I am hoping to be back on track today and have a reasonable weigh in tomorrow. I am cooking 4 oz 85/15 ground beef with 8 oz frozen broccoli right now for lunch. I will probably have the same thing (or with cabbage instead) for dinner.

185.4 (11:30am, naked, new scale, in Oregon)

I am pretty happy to start the year at 185.4 lbs. Last year on January 1st I was at 180.4 lbs. I consider the year an amazing success. June 2013 through December 2013 had a major weight loss. To be able to hold onto that weight for a full year is just incredible to me. It has historically been if not easy, at least possible to lose weight. Maintaining the weight loss is a whole other monkey. I had hoped in early December to be back under 183, but I am still really, really pleased to be at 185. I have spent the majority of 2014 around 193-196, so being at 185.4 is quite a nice end to the year. In 2015 I would like to lose another 10-20 pounds and then maintain it for the rest of my life. I KNOW how I have to eat to maintain my weight. I have not recorded food consumption for much of 2014. I consider that a huge cause of my inability to lose my remaining weight and my repeated gains into the upper 190's. HOWEVER, I have been grateful to learn that it is basically possible to maintain my weight loss by eating low carb foods in reasonable portions and not weighing and measuring each and every bite consumed. I will be flying home tomorrow, whereupon I plan to weigh and measure my food EVERY day (that I am not out of town for work) and recording it in Fitday. Weightloss is really slow anymore. I would be happy to lose 1.75 pounds a week now (which would be a 875 calorie deficit per day AND eating HFLC). Basically eating 1000 calories a day will get me a 1.75-2 lb weight loss per week. In a dream world I would get down to 163 and maintain. 22.4 more pounds. It's weird to me that so many New Years Days of my life were imagining a 60,70,80, 120 pound weight loss. To imagine losing ONLY 22.4 pounds just seems ridiculous. Three months of solid Fitday recording, LCHF, 1000 calorie days would land me at 163. (Which is a solid size 12). I AM happy at the weight I am now. I am constantly struggling to be at this weight though. Honestely, I DO recognize that I will spend the rest of my life struggling to stay sub 200 lbs. That is my hand and I will always have the fight against gaining weight back.