245.0 (9:45am)

Breakfast (noon): 5.82 oz strawberries, coffee with 41 grams heavy cream, 8 drops EZ-Sweetz

Lunch (1pm): 13.19 oz iceberg lettuce, 1.98 oz cooked bacon bits, 3.07 oz frozen green peas, 0.63 oz green onions, 99 grams cheese, 3 hardboiled eggs, 2.54 oz mushrooms, 64 grams mayo, splash rice vinegar, 8 drops EZ-Sweetz, pepper and onion powder

I should have eaten half the salad for lunch and half for dinner, but I ate it all at lunch. I am now STUFFED. I will see what happens this evening. If I need to, I will try to drink coffee with cream (instead of adding any more protein or carb grams to my daily intake).

It's now 8:20pm. I ate 2 large strawberries about an hour and a half ago and then had a diet cola. No dinner. I feel fine. I was worried that I would be starving all evening. It's interesting to me that I am not.

That salad was huge at lunch (check out the digital scale under the huge bowl for reference.

Daily totals:

1689 calories, 134.0 grams fat, 52.7 grams - 13.1 = 39.6 grams NET carbs, 73.2 grams protein

71%f, 12%c, 18%p

It was a kinda high day on the carbs. I am still not sure if I want to stick with as many as 1600 calories. Per fitday at 245.0 (sedentary) I am using 2683 calories per day. So eating 1600 calories per day should lead to a 2 pound weight loss per week. That's decent. I can lose as much as 3.5 pounds per week when I restrict below 1000 calories per day and exercise. But is that sustainable? If I always "fall off plan" because I am miserable, then should I use it as a means of losing weight? I don't know. Part of me wants to lose the weight really fast. The other part of me is getting older (I am 38 now) and wants to just lose the weight slow and steady and keep it off.

I am remembering that the definition of insanity is continuing to do the same thing and expecting different results. I have tried so many times over the last few years to make low carb eating work. I feel like there has to be a way that I can eat that leads to a lower weight and keeps my blood sugar in check, that doesn't lead to me eating "off plan" (binging) and gaining all the weight back (repeatedly).